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I feel sort of uneasy right now.
I have since I first woke up at about 6 this morning.
What is up with this not being able to sleep well shit.
All morning I tossed and turned trying to sleep for longer.
My stomach just has a weird feeling,
like pretty uneasy.
::sigh::
I have so much turmoil going on in my head right now.
A) I need to find a job.
Badly.
I haven't had one for almost a month now,
and my money is slowly dwindling away.
I don't even know what I am going to do about rent for next month.
I really hope I get my tax refund before then.
Getting a job sucks so much.
I hate having to dress up and go around soliticing myself to places,
and it is so hot out.
I don't want to be driving around in this shit.
Wel unless I'm stoned,
and it is probably not a good idea to look for a job stoned.
B) my heart is all twisted and torn up
It's kind of hard for me to think straight when this man is occupying my thoughts.
Yesterday,
that was good,
but also kind of torturous.
Especially when he hugged me.
I guess I shouldn't dwell on it though.
I need to find a job.
Fuuuucccckkkkkk.
This last month has been so sweet.
Just being able to read all day,
and learn about whatever I want.
I feel like I have learned a lot.
I've read a few books,
and lots and lots of essays and articles.
Good times.
I also have been doing a lot of writing.
Most of it has been kind of sappy and heartbroken,
but what can you do.
::Sigh::
All right,
I guess I need to TRY to do something semi productive with my life.