i haven't been feeling any better. at all. and now i have the worst back pain i have ever had in my life. my mom was getting really worried so she's been reading in her medical books about mono, and i have most all of the symptoms. back pain is a result of enlarged spleen which is a result of mononucleosis; an infection of the spleen. i had blood ( Read more... )

i hate this ( Read more... )

& i STILL have a fever.

stayed home from school today, i'm so fucking sick.

I’ve learned to patch up my messy heart with pieces of other peoples & leave the people who gave nothing substantial behind, I’ve only learned that this is what I need to do. Why should I know any of you, in the moments that we feel there is something, when we think we're so close? It always goes away. It always leaves ( Read more... )

last night my dad picked up chloe and i and we went to ritual ink. got some 14 gauge barbells. went back to my dad's and met erik there. we all went up in the castle and erik attempted to pierce one of chloe's nipples. it was.. interesting. walked and got pizza in the rain, and walked back. drank gin and orange juice in the castle, but there ( Read more... )

oh my god. the most traumatizing event of my life has just occured ( Read more... )

today was really long. had two tests that i probably bombed, but oh well ( Read more... )

it's almost funny how much i've realized when i took the step back to look upon things, rather than induldging in them blindly.
and it's funnier what i've realized, unintentionally.

but let me tell you.
it hurts.

"i say we go out drinking tonight, bar-hopping. IT'S LADIES NIGHT. come on kay." -my mom.

as much as i say i hate her,
i realize how much i love her to death sometimes.
and as much as i turn her away for all she has turned me away from,
i cannot help but appreciate her.

and love her in return.