Tonight was fun.  Jay and I were with his friends most of the time. So we got coffee, I watched he and his friends play poker for awhile...we went to Subway and watched a nice Hindu man at work (plus I got food)...afterwards we headed off to Grayslake for the 'Dungeon of Doom'.  That was way better than I expected. We went back onto 'De Woody' I ( Read more... )

I hate thoughts, sometimes it just gets so overwhelming...it almost feels hard to breathe.  ...So much it's nauseating.

shedding dreams under the maple tree
where I carved your name

time favors no one and if we wait
we too can fall in love a second too late

and out of all of this, I'm excited for Friday...basically the weekend.
I'm waiting in ( Read more... )

I'm just rolling away from yesterday
Behind the wheel of a stolen chevrolet
I'm going to get a little higher
And see if I can hot-wire reality

meeting new people is such a plus

"My fantasy is to just vanish, but no one would know where to find me.  I would just leave it all behind."

...something like that. For a moment that sounded good...but then I thought about all of the people I love. Even if they may not love me in return, even if I just worry so much, or even if they talk about me behind my back. Fact of the matter ( Read more... )

I feel more alone than ever.

Save me, please.  Save me, God.  I'm praying for someone's hand.

It's too quiet here. 

Today was too much to handle.  I feel sick to my stomach.  I want to say so many things, but I can't.  I won't.  I refuse.  When you came up to me today, I felt like I had blacked out, and everything that was happening was so surreal.  I thought about it the rest of the day.  I'm not sure right now what happened...and I'm not going to make my ( Read more... )

Tonight ...well, last night, was Homecoming. I was with Dane, Gary, and Emily, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Well, Emily and I weren't feeling well...but the boys looked good, and did a great job with setting everything up. Emily's hair looks gorgeous. I had a constant 'bobby-pin headache'. We took a ton of pictures with all of the parents ( Read more... )

Because the only thing that matters is that you get away from the pain and the thought of losing your mind.
Don't blame yourself.
It was everyone around who made you act this way.
There's the stage and your chance to watch it go down.

( Shot right through my heart )

( I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor )

So last night I went out with my mom.
Today I had a dentist appointment at 10...so I got out of school all day. I was hoping to see Dane, but ...I had so much homework from yesterday....and my mom and I went shopping and she locked the keys in the car by accident....we ended up walking home from Jewel. By the time I got home, it was already like 5- ( Read more... )