I give up on everything ... on love, me, my life, my friends, my family ... everything that i ever believed in ... all of it ... i cant take it anymore ... i give up on it all ... djing ... owning my own club, moving to cali ... everything i ever hoped an wished for ... all gone ... i jus wish i would go to sleep an jus never wake up from my ( Read more... )

djdarko its only for all the comminuties i belong too tho ...

I <3 headxmaster ... missing u hun!!!

So i havent been going out lately ... yur looking at a guy that used to go out 5-6 nights a week easy ... drinking til i couldnt remember where i am. Now i've totally cut that down to partying friday til early monday morning ... but i dont really have a choice, seeing how i work at a night club on both friday an saturday, so partying isnt even an ( Read more... )

Yup yup ... so i've jus been sitting in a limbo of confusion, an frustrations. The person that was bringing me my happiness before ... still does, but jus has me in limbo at the moment. These past few weeks have jus opened my eyes to alot of things that i was playing blind mice too. I still stand by what i said in my earlier post, she still does ( Read more... )

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Today my boy DjDestruct released his new dark hardstyle mix on his online station ( Read more... )

So finally i wake up to a day of unending happiness ... i wake up next to someone that makes me so unbelievably happy that i never want to leave their side. I made my mistake an from my mistake i learned that what i was feeling for this person wasnt jus a lust or a strong like, it was what i orginally thought. It was love!! Seeing those eyes, that ( Read more... )

Hey People ... i wanna start a second journal ... but i need another code ... if u can help, please do, it'll be greatly appreciated... Thanks ~<3 ya all Black Ray

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