En ymmärrä. En edes yritä. Ehkä en edes halua. No ei. Oikeasti olisi kiva ymmärtää edes jotain, mutta kun se vaikuttaa niin helvetin mahdottomalta. En tiedä enää missä menen. Siis mitä haluan elämältä. Jos yhtään mitään. Ei minulla ole sen kummempaa syytä olla elossa. Eikä kyllä kuollutkaan. Kuinka voin tehdä kaikesta niin helvetin vaikeaa. ( Read more... )

WorthlessNo, you don't want me ( Read more... )

I did not feel like staying home last night so we decided to go to Mocca with Tiia and Saara. Miia could not come for her boyfriend did not let her. I do not like nightclubs but since we got in for free and the beer and cider was only 1 e. before 11 pm I thought it would not be so bad. It was bad anyway. Of course it was. The music is fucking ( Read more... )

Alright, so last night was pretty good, although I was expecting the worse. I went to Saara's place around 5.30 pm and we started drinking right away... A little later on another friend and her ex-boyfriend came. The guy was pretty cool for he didn't like the music Saara had on her computer and insisted he'd download some better songs. Saara and ( Read more... )

Like I had any plans anyway! I'm just going to see what the hell is going to happen... it's better not to have any plans so that if they fail you will not be dissappointed ( Read more... )

I have finally decided to start exercicing for real so that I can get rid off all the fat in my body and also get in better shape. I started on Sunday by going to my regular gym and then on Monday I went to see another gym where my friend goes to... We worked out and today went for bodystep. Tomorrow we are going to another class and Thursday maybe ( Read more... )

I do not like living with my mother anymore. In a way I want to move back to Miami. But in another I want to stay here. I don't know how life would turn out in Miami, it could be alright, but I'd rather stay here anyway. The only thing that bothers me here is my mother. I wish I could move out but it's quite impossible for I am still in school and ( Read more... )

Niin paljon asioita on tapahtunut tämän vuoden aikana... niin hyviä kuin huonojakin. On aika muistella ja katsoa mitä kivaa tällä kertaa opinkaan - jos mitään ( Read more... )

I finally got myself a digital camera! Now I can take pictures all the time. Fucking awesome... I also got a lovely Jack Skellington bag and these awesome softie moonboots [for indoors use]. I just love them. Also got 3 cds ( Read more... )

I am in no x-mas mood and

I really couldn't care less !!!