Heck yes I got a movie shoot next sunday. Its not a big part or anything. But who the fuck cares. Im so bored at the moment, I think I might go get the mail and see if I got my credit card. I got some cool silver boots yesterday, but I am gonna take them back. They fit odd so I am gonna get some other boots. I get paid today yippi haha im in a ( Read more... )

I am very worried about Justin right now. He keeps telling me not to worry, that only the outer rings of the hurricane is near him. But thats still scary. Plus his houses windows are not boarded up. God, I honestly could not bare it if he got hurt. He consumes my every thought. I have never felt this way about someone. Just knowing I he is in my ( Read more... )

My mind wanders endlessly in the sea of love that he gives to me. His words sink into my heart, slowly mending all of its parts. His words sooth my soul like a thousand kisses sent down from heaven. I keep staring at my reflection trying to see what he sees in me. But all I see is broken dreams. Perhaps one day I will see what he loves so much. ( Read more... )

Work sucks, home sucks, money sucks, but he makse it all better. I have never been more happy in my whole effin life, and its all thanks to Justin. He makes me so happy, my cheeks hurt from smiling all the time. I just hope I dont screw it up some how. I dont know how but I always end up fucking things up. Maybe its not really me, maybe I just take ( Read more... )

So after a long night of contemplation. I realized that I am 18 and have only been on one date in my entire life. And that was with my boyfriend when I was 13, so that really does not even count. So now I am like well fuck me I have never really been on a date. Sure I have hung out with guys, but I try not to think of it as a date unless it they ( Read more... )

Guys in Vegas suck! They always like you until they see a friend of yours that is thinner and prettier than you. I guess I need to stop assuming that guys like me or find me attractive. Unless you are chubby or have been chubby you can not understand how it feels to be the chubby friend. But when I am thin I am going to flat out say "FUCK YOU" to ( Read more... )

Oh man I am really starting to freak out about my weight, I am just stuck in a rut. I am stuck at 145 and that is just not cutting it. So I am going to make an appointment to do the colonic cleansing as soon as I can. That should take of about 15lbs at once. So that would be a good kick start for me. I really want to look good for when I see Mario ( Read more... )

So I told Ryan off, I must say it felt good. But towards the end he coped out and was like, I have to go. So whatever he is an immature douche bag! I don't need him anymore. I have Mario, and I love him with all of my heart. He is all I need, he makes me feel so good. That is something no man has ever done for me. I never felt so good about myself ( Read more... )

Scratch the last entry. I am not happy. I know that I wont be until someone like me like I like them. I hate it I have the best fucking friends anyone could ever ask for and I am hopelessly depressed. I thought I knew what was going on but I was wrong, I misunderstood. Story of my life. He just wants to get to know me better. Oh and he called me ( Read more... )

I stretched my ears to 6 guage. I am feeling really good today. I talked to Ryan so now I know ( Read more... )