a week from tom, school starts. I'm not sure if i'm ready or not i've had a long break i'm nto stressed but it's going to be weird going back i feel liek i face this every year, the qs of if i'm ready. I feel very confident and contemplative today...Like i know what i want and i hve no worries in life, it seems as if everythign is in its place. ( Read more... )

I jsut downloaded the greatest cd for my mood lately its very fitting :) i cleaned my dorm room yesterday 3 big bags of trash 3 or 4 boxes with stuff in it are all trashed so now its more up to date and organzed and clean ( Read more... )

It's amazing how writing clears my mind so much. last night i wrote jsut wrote everythign i was thinking or feeling and it filled almost 3 pages front and back. I'm not saying i have everything all figured out cuz i dont but i feel alot better. I feel liek i got it out and its not just cluttering my head. I told bits and pieces to a few people ( Read more... )

i just got so fucking pissed!!!!!!!!!
i dont know what to say even. is this payback? its bullshit thats all i know.
i keep counting down but its not helping.
fuck it.

EDIT: 2:38am
The night improved greatly i love my firends especially when we are all together. My mind wasnt even thinking about earlier. So a bad start but a pretty sweet ending :

I need to start writing again. I used to write poems, lines, lists, anything to get my feelings out. I'm happy one minute then the next i start getting serious and i'm unhappy. I miss hangingout wiht people. My friends up at school are all moving and workign and going to school and my friends back home are not here. I've been sick for a couple ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do anymore and i dont know how to change things.
1 more day of work then i'm down in pines for the weekend.

i missed up again and i tried to change it an dit was already filled by some1 else.
i'm a disappointment i can tell my mom is upset and i know i am.

ok so i'm pissed as hell, i want out i want to move out of my apartment and is houldnt feel that way.i guess living at home for part of summer got me used ot the idea of cleaned appliances, clean toilet seats, food in the fridge, and things in order with a welcoming smell when u walk in the door and none of tha thappens here ( Read more... )

shit.shit.shit.

i hate my past and regret alot.
but i love jared more than anything.

i go back home this weekend, back to pines and back to my babe :) i'm so excited i havent seen him in 3 weeks and i miss him like crazy ( Read more... )