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I had promised myself that I wouldn't.
But once I felt my eye's glaze over with tears and my stomach tie in knots
I knew I would. I had felt this before. And I knew how to get rid of it. The blade was
cold and I warmed it up by rotating it around my fingertips. Something caught my eye
and I cut a faint line. Nothing came at first but the blood soon began to rise. Just that
much had soothed me...but i wanted more.
I picked a clear spot on my arm. A spot that had no scars on it or pink lines. I used the
edge first, just to break the skin. Then I dug deeper. Pulling the blade along. Moving my
hand from side to side. It took maybe 10 seconds but the reasuring* feeling it gave me
lasted longer.
I closed my eye's while I felt the blood travel to my hand. The pain was leaving. And I
could feel myself getting stronger . Feeling invincible at that moment. Loving how I could
finally control the way I feel. A shadow crossed over me and I could feel someone. I
raised up to see you standing there. Tears streaming silently down your face with a
blank expression. You watched the whole thing......and your the reason I had promised
myself I wouldn't.
hoping to get the sum 41 ticket before this weekend