* its ok dad..just another thing to put on the list of letdowns *

[xbrokenxhearted]

*Thanks Dad. I mean really thank you for letting me down..again. You dont love me, im just an obligation to you. Ive always known it i guess, but i never really understood till yesterday. I cant believe you had the nerve to actually promise you'd come see us on Christmas, cause you knew it was a lie when you said. You knew you never meant it. & now

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[rsalinger]

Sorry christmas wasn't what you expected it to be. I guess mine wasn't either. =\ Try and make the best of it though.

[xbrokenxhearted]

♥ yea i tried to

[illusional_life]

sweetie I'm so sorry. I struggle too with my dad, but I just try to make the best of it. I can't begin to say "I know what you are going through", because my Dad has always lived with us, even though sometimes he isn't "with" us. growing up I've learned that it doesn't do any good to hate him, but it really hurts to forgive him also. I don't listen to Good Charlotte anymore, even though I have their old cd in my closet, and I don't know if you do, but when you said this: "One day you'll regret it Dad. You'll regret never being there to see your kids grow up. You'll have to regret never lovings us, cause otherwise what kind of cruel world would this be", I thought of a certain song from them. You might try listening to "emotionless". It's a letter to their father. It begins with "Hey Dad, I'm writing to you.." It's on the "The Young and the Hopeless" album. good luck. and I have you have a better New Year, than your Christmas was. <3

[xbrokenxhearted]

aw thanks hun!!! It sucks so much..its too bad you know whut i mean thoough :(. I will hafta check out that song out. Have a great new year ♥

[hickorystick]

aww sweetheart. i'm so sorry your dad ruined your christmas. i know how you feel in a way. i've never even talked to my real dad. i hope i never do. he is such a bastard. my mom left state the day of their wedding so she could get away from him. he actually tried to follow her. he used to beat and rape her. it really fucked with my head when she told me that, cuz what if i was a product of one of those rapes, y'know? kinda scary to think about. so fuck dads. they suck sometimes. i guess we all have our own stories that mold us into who we are.....

but here is to a new year and a better life. cheers!
*hugs*

[xbrokenxhearted]

awh! im sorr about you dad too! gosh! But whut you said about our own stories that us into who we are..i really really liked that! it made me feel better! & yes CHEERS! ♥ ♥

[hickorystick]

i'm glad i made you feel better! anytime you need to talk, i'm here for ya!