im not drunk enough but whatever. i talked to jon, i spent my night realizing things and re-reading journal entries which is never a good idea. fuck. i cant write, again. fuck this fucking god damn pill. im goining to take myself off it. i am, starting tomorrow. sunday bloody sunday. thank you christine.

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i know where i am. i know were i want to be. im fully confident in my decision to get married. im going to have a long happy life with jon. no need for terrible writing tonight. no need to gush and complain. the end.

i still hate you beccey. i still hope you get aids and fucking die a terrible death.

im in the worst state of mind EVER right now. i cant write because it hasnt hit me yet. im hoping it will soon, because if i dont get something out im going to fucking explode. fuck fuck fuck.

i talked to justin pedrick for like 2 hours tonight. god damn do i miss my friends. i love him. i miss him. hes going on tour to jacksonville, 2 hours away from me, but he said in jan they will be in orlando for tour. i better see him. fuck. im in the weirdest state of mind right now. i cant write what i want to. fuck.

FUCK BECCEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKING HAAAATTTTEEEEEE YOU AND YOU STIL L

HAUNT MY DREAMS YOU FUCKNIG WHORE BITCH CUNT DIRTY FUCKIN

LYING COKE HEAD STUPID BITCH I FUCKING HATE YOU AND I WILL UNTILL THE

FUCKING DAY I DIE!!!!! I HOPE YOU GET FUCKING AID S AND DIE YOU FUCKING CUNT.

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if this doenst post i will be so fucking pissed. im on my last sip of wine, my last cigarette...im going to light it now...my parents sent me a carton..you would think by now they realized i smoke camel lights and they sent me a carton of camel filters. talk about harsh. i fucking wrote an entire entry and its gone, thank you live journal. its ( Read more... )

you mother fucking live journal. i wrote a whole entry and it wouldnt post it. im fucking done. i cant rewrite it. fuck you. fuck live journal. it was a good one too. im so pissed.

im going to be useless tomorrow at work.

i wish i could tell the world.

i cant.

i woke my mother up at 1am. fuck.

i have dvr...i tape the weirdest shit...

im happy i have jon, i tape all "cheaters" shows. hah. i almost want to call them so they can show what a real man is over tv.