hahaha i dared myself to write an entry tonight. its 5 min to four AM exactly. im not sure how to start entries anymore, i havent wrote a real one in so long. i cant start by saying my sister has made me cry tonight, and then follow with how my mother made me cry. all of which includes information i cannot disclose? what the fuck is the point of ( Read more... )

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

love, caity.

i cant write anymore. its alomst been a proven fact. i almost want to come off this medicine so that im able to write again. if i cant write im useless. i have 100 million things in my head but if i cant relay them into writting im useless. fuck.

false ideas carved into the stone of your skull ( Read more... )

im being fake to my journal. the one thing i was never fake to before, i cant even write what i want to in fear of seeing it myself.

i feel like i should be writing right now, like i usually feel, yet i cant seem to get anything out? i suppose that is the usual nowadays as well. im listening to all the right stuff and im drinking the right beer and im smoking the right cigarettes. its so hard for me to get back into the slump these days. catch22 if you ask me, because i write ( Read more... )

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first time since ive been in florida that i fucking hate my life. now i have to make yet another decision.

im obsessed with "highschool confidential" on wetv. seriously. best fucking reality show ive ever seen. they did it right. im okay with being alone tonight. i think because i took my pill at the same time i did yesterday. apparently taking it at the same time everyday works? even tho i was instructed that i could take it whenever i remembered to ( Read more... )

i really miss my friends.
i really really miss my friends.
ive made new friends here but its not the same.

i really really realy realy fucking miss my friends.

fuck clarity.