I know what i want, yet i have no idea what i want..

..maybe if i just keep thinking about it, ill know what to do. Or maybe not..

Well, looking back on this long weekend, they havent been the best of my days. It actually goes down as some of the worst, but, a few good things did come of it. Which, by the way, doesnt make up for all the terrible things, but is good enough to make me feel a little better, a put a smile on my face ( Read more... )

Well today..i did horrible at the meet. Not only did i throw like shit, i threw away a chance to go to the state relays..i totally blew it.. I throw good til im actually throwin for real..then i choke..how can someone go from 28 to 23 in about 5 minutes.. And stressed to the max i was..with steven l standin thurr watchin i cant do anything!! And ( Read more... )

Ever loved something so much that you thought it would always be there, and always be part of your life? Ever had something that you felt so much passion for, that you felt as if you'd burst any second? Ever tell yourself that no matter what it would always be what you love and want ( Read more... )

i dont know what to say..i just want to get out of here..its all so warped and screwed up..i just need to leave..

..where has everyone gone to..

a tad bored as of now..i was supposed to hang with meliss before babysitting..we were gonna go have dinner i think..then after do some karaoke and stuff..like old times..but..thats dashed..so ya...babysitting at 6:30ish..tryin to pay for vball and the mobile and everything else since i dont have any time for a real job again..riding prolly wont ( Read more... )

woo..i just shoveled ( Read more... )

Today, the first day back to school, well, it pretty much sucked. But thats expected when school is involved in anything. It was def kewl to see all the peeps again. But now I have to make up like 6+ tests that missed the week before vacation. And all the stupid classwork and homework, and boy does it add up. I did most of the makeup, but Im so ( Read more... )

Yup..this holiday week was pretty kewl..christmas was kewl..then all the stuff after that was kewl..even though i cant remember remotely of what i did..and after that..track blows as usual (the one steady thing in my life)..then..i went to the cape with sharon haha tres fun!! And I cant wait for maryland with shar and hil!! haha oh snap! Woo.. ( Read more... )

It seems that, most of my entries portray me as sad..or upset..or annoyed.. But I am not always these things. In general I must say I am a pretty happy person. During the day I have a sport, or Ill be kickin back and playing music or singing or painting or sketching or something like that. But sometimes at night I suppose I just feel slightly ( Read more... )