lonely kind of

so my ex gf is here getting all her stuff. i dont know. i dont really know what to feel. cuz its for the best. shes out there crying moving stuff and im just sitting here not feeling. kinda wierd. i feel bad but what can i do.

fucked.

when theres no video games or tv, a friend or a movie to keep me distracted i get really bummed. i just wish it was easy. just for a second ( Read more... )

i wish i could sleep. i wish i could stop my thoughts. i want to get away from all of this. i wish i could just go away and come back and have everything the way i want it. its almost 530 am. im goin to sleep. fuck my head.

i miss ( Read more... )

i love my friends. everythings gonna be alright.

fuck drunk people coming home and being stupid loud and obnoxious. straight edge.

seriously though what the fuck. we live in california. not new york. ca 80 to 85 with a nice breeze keeping you cool. not 90 all day with 90 % humidity along with lighning and thunder storms but no rain. and when it does rain it just makes it more humid which is almost never. fuck this weather fuck humans for fucking up our earth. and fuck global ( Read more... )

i tried to go to sleep at like 3 it is now 426. i have not played music of any sort since the hate broke up. i have sold every piece of equipment i own. ive not gone to a show since i think final fight at chain like a few months ago or something. anyways my mind has been filling with riff after riff of awesome metal. idea after idea and it wouldnt ( Read more... )