tommy!!! check your messages on your phone, the old lady was on tv again talking about sex and lubricants and dildos and vibrators!! i miss you babe, i'll be home monday.

and to teh rest of you, a little quote to express my feelings:

"life i love you, feelin groovy..."
-simon and garfunkel

i'm doing a lot better now. i've realized a little that its really his loss. and my friends are always here for me, which helps so much. they have been my rocks through this all. instead of going home for his birthday i'm going to see my sister in iowa. i changed the flight. it kills me to miss his 21st birthday. i already bought him all his gifts ( Read more... )

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alright guys, i'm sorry i keep quoting other people, its just that these people say it better than me. i miss him so much, i just want to be ok again and with him. i'm so sick of hurting ( Read more... )

"Oh she was a rare thing, fine as a bee's wing"

-richard thompson
one of hte best song writers ever.

All around me are familiar faces ( Read more... )

You. You were a friend. You were a friend of mine I let you spend the night ( Read more... )

life handed us a paycheck and we said "we worked harder than this."

please God, help me. i dont deserve this.

i dont understand whats going on. is it me? i wish i could just know what was happening, what hes thinking. i dont know what to do anymore. i've kinda thrown my hands up in the air. i dont know if i should give up or what. i've invested so much and i feel like my life wouldnt even conitinue if i were to ever live without him. i just dont understand ( Read more... )