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I DID It!!!!!
I finally managed to finish After death
It feels good to have finished it...really does...I can concentrate on the rest...I aim to start updating more regularly...lets start with...say... 1 new chapter a week? Yea thats anice easy start for me,,,
anyways,,,
“Take both of them.” I heard my father’s voice say. I pulled Gackt closer to me, holding him even tighter, now he forgave me, I wasn’t about to let him go.
“Shall we run?” I whispered into his ear. But the look in his eyes told me we couldn’t. I knew it was true. The other men would just shoot us if we tried to run. But I wanted to protect Gackt. I had to.
“Leave him alone!” I shouted at my father, I couldn’t do anything but maybe I could reason with him.
“You’re in with him now, that’s it.” My father replied. It hurt. My father, who had raised me alone had turned on me. I held Gackt closer to me. He had to be worth this.
I think he knew how hurt I was by these words. I felt him hug me tighter for just a moment before suddenly, he tore away from me and ran, to my horror straight at some of the soldiers. Without flinching they fired. A blaze of gunshots filled the air and instinctively I threw myself down on the ground. I placed my hands over my ears and shut my eyes. If Gackt was going to die I didn’t want to see it.
The number of screams I heard was terrifying. What made things worse was that I couldn’t tell if any of them belonged to Gackt. Tears began to burn my eyes. I didn’t know what was happening or even if I would get out of it alive. I was distraught. The whole scene was a blur to me. How long I was lying there on the ground I had no idea, it felt like forever.
The noise had stopped. How long had it been so quiet? I hadn’t noticed the gun noises stop, I hadn’t notice the screams stop. I didn’t open my eyes. I couldn’t. If I opened my eyes I’d see Gackt’s still body in front of me. Eyes still open, covered in a thick layer of blood, bullet holes all over that beautiful form.
A hand shook me from my terrifying daydream. I was pulled to my feet, still reluctant to open my eyes. Eventually…I did. I scanned the scene in front of me. Soldiers’ bodies were strewn around. Some had limbs missing, blood dripped from all of them, one, just a few centimetres from him had his own gun sticking through his chest. I almost threw up but then I saw Gackt. It was his hands that were on me. He was looking at me anxiously. He was stained with blood…other people’s blood.
“I’m sorry.” He whispered. I took his bloodstained hand.
“Come on.” I said, pulling him away from the scene. I didn’t know where we could go. I had to take him away from here, from this city.
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We went home first to collect supplies, clothes, food money. We caught a train away, halfway across the country to another major city. We could remain inconspicuous in a city so large, we could lie low, live as outcasts, so long as nobody caught on.
We rented a room in a dirty hotel located close to the city’s red light district. The room was small, bright lights from sleazy strip clubs flashed through the window. I pulled the curtains shut, trying to block out the reality of where we were. I turned back to him. He was laid back on the bed in just a pair of jeans and looking at me expectantly. I just looked away. I hadn’t been able to face him properly. I knew I would do eventually, it was just taking time.
“Your father ran off.” He said, beginning the conversation I had dreaded. Well…at least I knew my father wasn’t dead.
“I lost control. It was because of the way they enhanced my body, that’s why I was able to kill.” I stood, still staring at him. He wasn’t the person I had met anymore; he was a killer, a ruthless one at that. He still needed me, I know he did. I also needed him.
“You scared me.” I admitted looking away. “Seeing those men…in the way they were…all that blood.” I shook, I needed to sit down. Gackt got up and nervously placed his arms around me, resting his head on my shoulder.
“Please forgive me.” I heard him whisper faintly. I felt him shaking slightly and realised he was crying.
“They took my old life and gave me this one…It’s nothing, they trained me to kill, enhanced my body with chemicals and when I didn’t work out for them left me in that room…but you…you found me, gave me another chance…I don’t want to kill, I don’t want to be like this.” My heart melted, of course he wasn’t just a merciless killer, he was human. I pulled him close to me.
“It’s ok.” I said. “We’ll get through this.” I held him until his tears dried and pulled him over to the bed.
“Did you mean what you said before about loving me?” Gackt whispered. It was so cute, almost as if he was afraid to ask that question. I decided to answer with a kiss. A slow, tender one, I had to prove all my love to him in that one kiss. It was amazing, it finally felt that we were able to do this, able to be together, finally, as it should be. I pulled back and watched him, amused at how nervous he looked.
“Of course I meant it.” I whispered leaning close to his ear. I took his satisfied smile as a hint to continue and pushed him over so he was lying on the bed. Hastily I moved on top of him and started to kiss him again. He kissed back, but slowly and unsurely, he wasn’t used to this, I knew that. Desperate for more I slipped my tongue into his mouth Gackt was everything to him and he loved him, but he needed the physical side too. The porn magazines Gackt had found earlier were no longer needed, the nights that Kami had thought about Gackt in that way made him think that actual sex would be amazing. I moved my hand down and rested it on his crotch, just lightly enough so that he knew I was serious about this. I broke the kiss and smiled down at him. He looked up at me and smiled. Before lifting his head in an attempt to reignite the kiss. I all too happily obliged, glad he was comfortable with this. I moved my lips to his neck. Kissing it gently, I heard a moan escape his lips and smiled to myself.
“Like this do we?” I grinned looking down at him.
“Again.” He whispered with a pleading look in his eye.
“Nope...I have something better.” I smiled and moved down to unbutton his jeans exposing his gradually hardening penis. I fully removed his jeans and concentrated on the task in hand. I positioned myself between his legs and gently licked him.
“Kami.” I heard him gasp. I loved it, wanted to hear him make more. I licked more and more of him enjoying the moans I was receiving from him. Gradually I took his full length into my mouth and sucked hard.
“God!” Gackt cried, clinging with one hand to the bed sheets, the other digging into my hair. I wanted to make him feel the best he could. Wanted him to know how much my love for him meant.
“Kami please…” Gackt began but what he was asking me for I don’t know. He never got chance to finish that sentence as I felt him reach climax.
“Enjoy it?” I asked smiling down at him
“I…” He began, still unable to form a coherent sentence. I laughed and gave him a quick kiss on the lips before pulling off my own clothes and discarding them carelessly.
I positioned myself above him and slowly entered him. Gackt gave out a gasp of pain and I stayed still for a moment, letting him adjust. It was agony, I wanted to continue, to bring myself the ultimate pleasure soon, but he needed me to wait, he wasn’t used to this, I could tell.
“Go…” He whispered. He must have noticed my emotional struggle.
“Are you sure?” His reply came in the form of him leaning forward and kissing me. It was an offer I couldn’t refuse and within seconds I was pushing inside him, trying to gain as much pleasure as I could without hurting the fragile creature beneath me. From his own moans I guessed he was enjoying himself and so was I. Sex had never felt this good before. Then again I’d never really loved any of my previous partners. I don’t think anyone could ever imagine how good it felt, maybe it was only Gackt, if that was the case I never wanted anyone to have this, never wanted another soul to ever have sex with Gackt, I’d never let anyone take him from me.
In what seemed like too soon the pleasure became too much to take. I felt myself climax and collapsed on top of Gackt. I felt his arms wrap around me and smiled to myself.
“I love you.” The uttered words were low and almost inaudible. But they were his, I opened my eyes and looked at him. “I think I’ll always love you.” I replied.
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We survived those years by moving from city to city every six months. Getting small jobs and living in the worst parts of town. Gackt opened up more and more as the days went by, he’s different now, the shyness has gone. My father found us one night, he’d followed us around chasing after us. That confrontation, even now, makes my heart grow cold. I took a bullet for Gackt that day, luckily it only hit my arm. It showed my father exactly what I would do for Gackt. He promised to leave us alone…as long as we moved far away and never came back. He agreed to call off the military search. Gackt and I now have steady jobs, in a nice small town. Our house is miles from anywhere, we can enjoy each other’s company and that’s it.
All the events of past years made me realise just how lucky I am, and now, looking to my side, I see the thing that makes me luckiest of all. Gackt sleeping is the most beautiful sight in the world. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.