1 August 2008
its bad when you wish your manager calls you to ask for help unpacking all his things because he just moved just because it means you can get out of the house and hang out with other people from work.
its also bad when you get upset (jealous) that your boyfriend's friends called him last minute to go see dark knight...because not only will you not get to see him that night on video chat or get to fall asleep at least talking on the phone but he has friends that idk...simply call him to idk...simply hang out.
its also bad when you call your boyfriend a jerk because he implies that you might as well work since its not like you'd have plans (as a joke...he didn't realize what he said til he saw how upset it got me and then apologize profusely about how he didn't mean it that way--the way that implies all i do is sit at home alone or work)
its also bad when all you do is sit at home and be upset with yourself because you snack because you're lonely and have nothing better to do
so you're upset with (hate) yourself and obsess over how your're gaining weight (cause god forbid you weigh more than 120lbs)
and you look forward to rome because it means you'll lost weight.
sunday...justin...only 36 hours away...
i can't wait for rome...then just have to come back here for one month while we finalize a place in philly.
then goodbye rockland county.
its also bad when you get upset (jealous) that your boyfriend's friends called him last minute to go see dark knight...because not only will you not get to see him that night on video chat or get to fall asleep at least talking on the phone but he has friends that idk...simply call him to idk...simply hang out.
its also bad when you call your boyfriend a jerk because he implies that you might as well work since its not like you'd have plans (as a joke...he didn't realize what he said til he saw how upset it got me and then apologize profusely about how he didn't mean it that way--the way that implies all i do is sit at home alone or work)
its also bad when all you do is sit at home and be upset with yourself because you snack because you're lonely and have nothing better to do
so you're upset with (hate) yourself and obsess over how your're gaining weight (cause god forbid you weigh more than 120lbs)
and you look forward to rome because it means you'll lost weight.
sunday...justin...only 36 hours away...
i can't wait for rome...then just have to come back here for one month while we finalize a place in philly.
then goodbye rockland county.