I talked to Mel yesterday, it was 6am where she was when she called. She told me that she was worried about me. I cant say I blame her for that. Hunter is here again. Right now he is watching T.V. in the other room. Im eating a candy apple. There isnt much else to update about. My head it throbbing and I really just want to crawl back into bed but ( Read more... )

Thank you Joey for coffee last night. We gotta hang out more man!

I cant take the silence. I cant take not being able to go out side without at least 4 or 5 female teenagers asking me where i get my make up. sometimes i wonder if this life is worth it. i spend 90% of the year on the road. and yes i love my bandmates but sometimes a different human contact is needed. even if it is just a glance form that one ( Read more... )

The house is so quiet. Hunter wound up coming over last night and just hanging out with me. Which was nice because the silence was begining to crush my ears. We didnt really do anything. Just ordered food and did nothing. I dont even remember him leaving. I think I fell asleep or something. I was talking to Aly last night when AIM kicked me off. ( Read more... )

Mel left for Japan today. It wasnt easy to say goodbye. I am really gonna miss her. I want her here. But touring must come first. It was nice going out with Amir today. We spent most of the time driving around. life is much better when you are in a car. We talked about everything, and it was nice to talk to someone who has been in some of the same ( Read more... )

laying here with her is the most peaceful time in the world. the little idiocyncracies that she has make up the complexity of how much i love her. little things like the way she gently rubs her head on my chest when she dreams. or like how her eyes dance when she smiles. then the way she runs her fingers through my hair when she is slightly smiling ( Read more... )

I am on my deathbed. The show tonight was canceled and i didnt make it to Rocky Horror. Way for me to ruin a night. Im sorry everyone...The show for tomorrow is still on. I hate to cancel two nights in a row. Melanie is here now. Thank God.

I dont know if the show tonight is gonna go on. After last night, i came home with Melanie and it felt like my health was running out the door. We tried to go to the park where we first went but it really didn't work for me :( . We came back here and I was ready to crash. I fell asleep for a few moments when she went to make tea.

Then with tea in ( Read more... )

Show tonight!! Anyone gonna be there? ;)

Last night was... i really dont know how to explain it. After a day of shopping with Allison I returned back to my place. After putting all the clothes and make up that i bought away, the place seemed so quiet. I've never dealt well with that. Why do you think I'm almost always on tour. Being around people is much better than being alone. That is ( Read more... )