Physical therapy is actually fun. We discuss art while she uses a device to send electricity through my muscles. Then I get a hand massage. Then when I leave my left hand feels like it wants to take a nap.

Sometimes I can't tell if the sky is just an amazing painting or an endless universe. The latter makes me feel insignificant yet infinite at the same time.

I'm finally getting physical therapy for my left wrist that I injured about a year ago.

Right now I'm feeling very insecure, about everything. I hate this feeling. :(

Just kidding. Kevin is the most amazing boyfriend ever and made me feel so much better. <3

The truth hurts. Change is hard. But sometimes that's just what you need. That's what I need. I can't keep dwelling in my irrational anxieties all the time. I don't want to cripple myself for the rest of my life. I need to stop making excuses. I need to stop hiding the embarassment of my anxieties. I need help. It's gonna be difficult, and I'm not ( Read more... )

This morning I had a dream that I killed someone. I strangled her to death, I'm not sure why. I had my dad get rid of the evidence while I went to the pharmacy (I'm not sure why). At the pharmacy there was some problem, I think some guy might've had a gun or was trying to get free painkillers. Then I was at my house and my grandmother was there. My ( Read more... )

( sleepy cats )

I got into Montserrat College of Art today. I guess I'm getting a scholarship too but Julie didn't say too much about that (she called me and I'll get my packet soon ( Read more... )

Guess who got an A+ on her senior project???

I hate having ridiculously low self-esteem and low self-confidence. Story of my life.