im fucking almost over this.
this hole keeps getting bigger, then smaller. bigger. smaller.
but it seriously never changes.

nothing fucking ever changes.

i am really, really not happy.

this girl definatly needs to stop hitting on my boyfriend.
i wish shed just fucking give up already.
ew.

i hate how everyone else's lives look more interesting than my own. even though they probably really arent, because ive got the best thing in mine <3

ive been super sick, stupid UTIs and bladder infections, then being all yucky and sneezy and dizzy.

i <3 cranberry juice now ( Read more... )

i lost 5 lbs since ive been back from san ramon visiting kelly.
my goal is 100...i just have to keep this up so the other 10 are gone...
its not even because i think im fat, i know im not. i just want to be happier with how i look.

oh a way way high note...
kelly and spencer are flying to KC and driving back with me on april 26th.

im so excited.

six more weeks.
ill just keep telling myself that.
six more weeks.


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i feel like such a fatty ( Read more... )

my boyfriend is fucking hot.
so is his fucking gummyworm...
i hate it when he leaves me in his apartment and goes to work for 412897412 bajillion hours.

i seriously know i cannot fix things that happened in the past, even when he didnt know me ( Read more... )

hahaha.
i love this sucky feeling.
how about you do this more often?