There's always this constant nagging thought in the back of my mind that all of this time is being wasted, and I'm not experiencing anything new or worthwhile. It's so stagnant. These situations are so monotonous and droning. What the -excuse my language- fuck was this all about, anyway? Did I miss something? Newness newness newness!

It's needed ( Read more... )

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x  Orientation for school this morning.

It was hot.  And bright.  My schedule sucks.  Marilou was there.  So was Dean.  But no picnic-table boy.

And that's all I have to say about that.

x  Came home and watched music video's with EmoAsh, which is actually alot more difficult than you'd think, due to the fact that we can hardly agree on any band ( Read more... )

StUpId    sPiWaK: hey steph?
StUpId    sPiWaK: where r u?
XxStreetTrashxX: OMG!!!!      i'm in the TREES!!!!!
StUpId    sPiWaK: what do u c?
XxStreetTrashxX: the CLIFFS!
StUpId    sPiWaK: what about them cliffs?
XxStreetTrashxX: :-D:-D:-D
StUpId    sPiWaK: :-Dhehe

x  My mood has improved.
Things may never be ok, but I'm willing to give.
I just want to be as happy as I possibly can given the circumstances.

x  I was spending time with Jay and Jen when we went out to dinner.  Now this is a great time in itself, but this time Jay said the greatest thing. 
Jen got up to get her meal, and before she left she gave ( Read more... )

Maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both live again.

Quite a few thoughts about death today.
Been thinkin' some of suicide.

Which is a difficult thing to say, because as anyone who really knows me can testify, I'm about as anti-suicide as they come.

But I'm just filled with this overwhelming desire to do something extreme.  Just so that I can prove to everyone, to you, that this is serious, that I'm ( Read more... )

x  Yes, Spiderman 2 does indeed kick major ass.

As for Peter Parker's secret identity?  Ain't much of a fuckin' secret anymore... boy's mask was being ripped off left and right...

Everyone go see it.  Even if you're not a nerd.  You'll be touched.

x  Jay and Jen are pissed.  Jen's sister, who hasn't been allowed to see her mum in years, is in town ( Read more... )

Fallen
Bruised and broken
This girl in dirty jeans
Is down on her knees
Cause everything that's real
Everything she feels
Is disappearing from her sights
And is gone now