some warm-up..300 ish ( Read more... )

i cant seem to get ahead. id rather not go to work tonight. i wish i had gotten a real studyhall and not spent half an hour doing prealgebra with freshman that dont understand how -8+2 could possibly be -6 and not -10 ( Read more... )

Ally: hey, whats up ( Read more... )

so uh.. no more marching band. yesterday didnt feel like finals. we didnt do our best. i wish it was away. i dont like finals at south portland. i liked having a home competition..but not for finals. holy god did the crowd cheer though. im gonna miss it so damn much. WHAT WHAT. itll be weird to have matt at school with no marching band. i dont know ( Read more... )

happy things: sarahs still cool, kegan tried it, beavus, emily and lex and briggon and cuddling, the cuddle-fest in the 'marching band fort thingy', band, drumming with corey, getting to stamp hands with sarah on saturday ( Read more... )

so aside from the ashes i left on the stand after my audition, southern maine tryouts went pretty well. i was afraid it would be boring when we first got there because no one was doing anything cool but then i got to see kyle for a little bit and hang out with him which was good because i was in an 'i love kyle' mood. oh and jeremy was there ( Read more... )

i dont know what im doing anymore. i dont like to battle. i thought i did. i thought it made it fun. but i dont like it. i dont like competition. i just wanna be loved. i just wanna be held. when eric and samie are together its just..so right..and i want that. i dont want evan there..but just the way he touches her, or the way she kisses him.. i ( Read more... )

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i got to swim yesterday. it was amazing. i needed it so bad. people are just too confusing. like this summer i think, why do i really need to swim? this is fine, i can deal. then things like the stuff at camp happen and i just freak out. need...swim...now. and so back to the drama of high school and i feel the urge to swim and release myself. i ( Read more... )