today when i weighed myself i saw a number that i havent seen in perhaps 6 years
yeah
im still a fatso
but it still feels good knowing im slowly getting there

im supposed to go to the bank to go put money on my credit card
im too lazy to move
or
get dressed
ill leave it till tomorrow which is dumb
but fuckit

like....for real
fuck this
fuck tonight
fuck the w/e

im tired
im sick of relying on stupid sleeping pills that dont work
fuck not being able to just accept that this is me
i dont want to set myself unachievable goals but i cant seem to stop, i cant stop doing this to myself

why cant i just be happy

its only just after midday and im sitting here with... a rather strong alcoholic beverage ( Read more... )

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im going to go watch the shining, im probably gonna shit myself
im scared
EEEEE
im ssssccccaaarrreeeddd
i miss my husband

the little things that really make me smile

i havent been getting any emails to say ive had comments in ELJAAYYYY ( Read more... )

bless you, you dirty mother fucker i fucking love you for putting a smile on my face this not so grand happy morning...

bless pottymouths

yay i have money again