CHRONIC i n s o m n i a; Chapter FIVE. DIRU.
TITLE: CHRONIC i n s o m n i a.
CHAPTER: Five/? This is where things get Fucked up.
PAIRINGS: Not seen yet, slight kaoruxShinya. ShinyaxDie, KyoxShinya,ToshiyaxKyo, ToshiyaxDie
COMMENT: I love writing this, especially in school because I think better LOL. Ironic? Well, more to come, hopefully. Enjoy!
I sat in the classroom, staring blankly at my laptop. I was sitting in the music department again, alone. There was a ruckus the other day when I was absent, some students created havoc and ruined the whole room. So right now, I’m sitting in the store room, partly hiding, maybe from Kyo. And from the constant knocking on the door from angry students, another reason to hide, they’re probably getting ready to bash the head of whomever is in here. Thank god they don’t know it’s me, thought secretly I feel they do.
Well, I guess there’s not much I can do now. Besides hide from everyone, again. And I don’t feel like seeing Kyo today, even though he’s probably hiding in the other store room. Maybe I should lock the door. Yes, that would be a wonderful idea.
“You should really lock the door, Shinya.”
“EH!?!”
I dropped from my seat, clinging to the side of the one desk that happened to be in this overly small store room. Kyo, I knew he was here, or had to be here. I really wish I had of locked the door earlier now.
“W-Why are you here?”
“Session.”
“How many is there?”
“As many as I think is necessary.”
I rolled my eyes, pushing myself up from the floor, restraining myself from making eye contact with the man. Before I could make a break for it, I felt a hand touch my shoulder. Turning round I shrugged my shoulder, wiping whatever germs he could have attached to my clothes, looking him up and down without saying a word.
“I couldn’t find you yesterday, Shinya.”
“I was ill.”
“In what way?”
That’s when I looked at his face. He knew fine rightly how I was sick and maybe that’s why he’s using it as if I am to make it an excuse. Which is fair to say I am, sort of. Then again, was I ill? Or was it….
“ Anyway, let’s get started.”
Watching his retreating back, I followed with the least interested expression possible to man. Kyo sat at one of the tables in the classroom, gesturing for my to join him. I felt like a rebel, I leaned against the counter top, arms folded against my chest, staring at the smaller man whom was at the other side of the room. A faint sigh was heard then a screeching of a stool being forced to move. I felt his presence in front of me, crossing his legs as he sat on the table.
“You hate human contact.”
“Huh?”
“Correct or not?”
“I-”
“Answer the fact.”
“Correct.”
“Good, now I got that out of the way, here.”
He walked back into the store room, coming back with a small box in his hands, setting it on the table. He took out a tag from his pocket, placing it in my hand and going towards the door. Turning slightly as he twisted the door handle he raised his hand with a grin, door closing after.
“What on earth…”
I stepped towards the box, lifting the lid cautiously I peeked within the dark depths of the square shape, having something wet lather my nose. I twitched, flipping the lid up, jumping back as a small animal popped up, a dog, clinging onto the rim of the box. Blinking I rendered closer, touched the small dog’s head slowly. It was so soft….cute.
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I sat on the edge of my bed, glancing back to the window every so often. Die has been out for an awfully long time. I don’t think he came back last night at all. I’m not worried, of course not, should I be?
“Argh, he’s an adult anyways.”
I stood beside the window, watching over all the people strolling by, minding their own business or so it seemed but really, they weren’t. All parasites. Walking deceivers, such disgusting things they are. I’ll never understand how they can live with themselves, no guilt or sorrow. A bunch of bugs, that’s all they are.
Leaning against the ledge, someone stood out amongst the crowd, a blue haired boy with a crutch. For some reason my heart ached. Did I know him….or do I? In a way, I want to know him but for what reasons, even I’m unsure. There’s just something about him, that I can relate with.
“Don’t run off by yourself!”
“Hm?”
That voice….
Looking behind the blue haired boy there was Die. Was he yelling to me , Or…that boy? Interested I leaned forward, trying to understand the situation even though there was a sense of anger growing over me, wanting myself to run down there, take Die back and find out about the boy at the same time. However, I was not going to do that. I would observe.
Looks like they’re having an argument. They obviously know each other in some way.
“Was this boy the reason Die didn’t come home last night?”
If that’s so then this would change everything.
Watching for the past 5 minutes of bickering, I was about to walk away, fed up with the dramatic scene, going to bring Die back whenever the noise stopped. I looked back to see the boy in Dies’ arms, lips locked.
Crack.
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“Ugh…where am I?”
I woke up, on the floor of somewhere I’m not used to. Basically I don’t know where the fuck I ended up. I hope I wasn’t drugged. I patted myself, underwear still on. Was not raped or fondled. Good so far. I stood up, examining my surroundings. Normal bedroom, just not mine. No Kaoru in sight, and a blue haired boy beside me-
“WHAT.”
I looked at his face, resting of my side. I moved his blue locks from his eyes. He was in a deep sleep. I hope this is his room or I don’t know what to make of this.
“Mhm…he’s pretty.”
With that his eyes shot open and I felt myself being flung to the floor. I looked up at the younger boy pinning me to the ground with wide eyes. He’s nuts!
“What did you say about me?! Pretty, PRETTY? I’LL GIVE YOU PRETTY!”
“WOAH.”
I rolled over, putting the boys’ arms above his head, kneeling on his legs, making him cry out in pain. I didn’t do Kendo for nothing.
“Okay, I’ll let you go when you answer me.”
“…….Go.”
“What’s your name?”
“Toshiya.”
“Okay, where are we?”
“My room.”
“Why?”
“You tell me.”
“What?”
“You asked me where I lived then dragged us here. Then…you kind of knocked yourself out and I didn’t know what to do with you.”
“Woah… I knocked myself out. How exactly?”
“You tripped over one of my boots and hit your head.”
“….So it was your fault.”
“You didn’t have to come into my house. That was your choice, Die.”
“That’s absurd and-”
I moved back.”
“How’d you know my name?”
“……Wow, you must be full of yourself.”
“Huh?”
“You told me if in the park earlier yesterday. You know, when I fell?”
“…………..Uh.”
He shrugged, jumping up and hopping towards his dresser. His bandaged leg was now red. Shit, I must have caused the wound to open again.
“Oh shit, let me mend your leg.”
“Stay away! You don’t even know me anyway.”
“But still…”
He turned back, cleaning his face of smudged make-up. He’s still pretty without the slap. He has issues, sort of reminds me of Kaoru…..
“Kaoru!”
“What?”
Now he was looking at me, oh, actually interested, Toshiya? He’s a strange boy.
“My room mate. I was trying to find him when-”
He looked up at me, placing the wipe in the bin as he watched me sit down on his bed. Crossing his leg, he leaned forward, awaiting for me to continue my sentence. It feels good…. To have someone want to listen to what you have to say.
“When I met you… the second time. I was trying to contact my friend, Kaoru but you were crying. Why?”
His whole expression changed. I must have hit a nerve in his brain or something. This does not look good.
He jumped up, well wobbled slight from his injury. I sat back, watching as he huffed flinging his hands and grabbing a coat. For some reason this felt like De ja vu , it’s happened before.
“Calm down, Toshiya!”
“I will NOT Calm down, I don’t have to explain anything to the likes of YOU!”
“WOAH, What’s that supposed to mean!?”
“YOU TELL ME.”
He ran out of room, more like a limp gone horribly wrong. And for some reason… I ran after him. Like a scene out of sickly done romance film. Man runs after….man? Whatever, I’m gay anyway.
I chased him all the way into the city centre. Damn, for a guy with a fucked up leg, he sure can run.
“Toshiya! STOP.”
“NO, WHY SHOULD I?”
Again… why should I? And why the hell was I chasing him? I was concerned but for what reasons and why. Maybe it’s cause he’s younger or he shouldn’t be allowed out on his own. That’s it.
“Please, stop running, Toshiya! Your leg will get worse!”
“STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CARE!”
“I DO CARE!”
Wait, what? Did I just say, no, scream that?
He stopped, turning to me, continuing his earlier antics but in a lower tone and much close to my person. I have to be honest, I was a bit unsure of myself and a little frightened. I started to bicker back, not even knowing what was coming out of my mouth at this point. I was just staring at his face. His features, he was defiantly a beaut. He must be at least a year or so younger than myself.
“Are you even listening!?”
He was on the bridge of tears once again, this time I had no idea what to do or why he was so emotional! He’s like half man, half woman! And that’s when my body took over.
“DIE-”
My arms pulled him into my chest, taking his lips with my own. I felt his arms wrap round my neck, his muscles easing into the embrace, tears flowing down his cheeks.
He just needed a little cry and someone to be there.
But what did I need?
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It started to rain, strange, it was so bright a minute ago. I heard a small cry, looking down I see the small dog shivering behind my leg. My heart jumped, that was the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. To think I just got enjoyment from a small thing being scared shitless.
I bent down, cradling the puppy in my arms, covering it with my coat. I must be mad. I’ll be soaked by the time I get home. Not like it matters anyway, mother’s probably away out again with his posh friends and Father… work.
I closed the front door, putting the dog down to view the smaller world down there I hung my coat on the radiator just as the doorbell rang.
“We’re only in the door, who could that be?”
I open the door to reveal a man, soaked right down to the soles of his shoes. It was when I looked up that I realised why he was at my door.
“K-Kaoru!”
He gave me a smile, as he walked into the hallway., slipping his drenched shoes into the corner, his hand and coat on a neglected hanger.
“W-Why are you here? Does Die know you’re here-”
“Shhh, Die doesn’t care where I am. And is it wrong I want to see you, Shinya?”
“Ah..I, I don’t know…”
I felt him push me up against the wall, hands planted on my hips like chains. Kaoru is strong, always had been for as long as I can remember. When we played games in the garden as kids, he’d always knock me out. Not that it mattered, for when I woke up he was there, caring for me. Or shitting himself that his mum would nag him. One or the other.
“Kaoru, what are you talking about?”
“Nothing, just you.”
“Me?”
“You, I want only you.”
He slid his tongue into my mouth, I wasn’t sure whether to shove him off or wrap my arms round his neck. Pulling me closer to his torso, I chose to places my hands on his face, making the kiss more intimate. I could hear the puppy coming closer, the tiny steps clicking against the wooden floor.
Kaoru descended onto my neck, licking and nipping, I looked to the other side, seeing the small dog sitting in amusement. Should such a young thing be seeing this? Is it wrong?
Something inside me gave me a sickly feeling and I lowered my head. Kaoru stopped and leaned down, putting his hands against the wall.
“What’s wrong?”
I shook my head, his gaze turned to the dog.
Kaoru wasn’t sure what to do. To lift it or kick it. However, if Shinya let it inside then he must like the thing. The question was, where did he get it?
“Miyu”
“Hm?”
“I named her Miyu.”
“Ah……”
Kaoru removed his hands from the wall, stepping closer to the dog who seemed to shiver in fright. He carefully lifted the small creature, setting it into the kitchen and closing the door.
“What are you doing?”
“Shhhsh.”
The door clicked. Kaoru headed towards me, his hands returned to venture down my torso. Some people might disagree with this, not just the sexuality but the age difference. Sure I was 17, almost 18 but Kaoru was 19 going on 20.
“K-Kaoru…..”
I know he didn’t truly want me. He want’s Die, always has. Even though I’ve never met the guy, you can just tell that he cares greatly for him. He sounds like such a nice guy this Die. I wish to meet him one day to understand Kaoru’s feelings.
“Shinya.”
“Hm…-”
Kaoru pulled me up, flinging me over his shoulder. The shock took me first before I realised he was taking down to my bedroom. I wasn’t ready for that! No, he wouldn’t. He couldn’t.
Could he?
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CHAPTER: Five/? This is where things get Fucked up.
PAIRINGS: Not seen yet, slight kaoruxShinya. ShinyaxDie, KyoxShinya,ToshiyaxKyo, ToshiyaxDie
COMMENT: I love writing this, especially in school because I think better LOL. Ironic? Well, more to come, hopefully. Enjoy!
I sat in the classroom, staring blankly at my laptop. I was sitting in the music department again, alone. There was a ruckus the other day when I was absent, some students created havoc and ruined the whole room. So right now, I’m sitting in the store room, partly hiding, maybe from Kyo. And from the constant knocking on the door from angry students, another reason to hide, they’re probably getting ready to bash the head of whomever is in here. Thank god they don’t know it’s me, thought secretly I feel they do.
Well, I guess there’s not much I can do now. Besides hide from everyone, again. And I don’t feel like seeing Kyo today, even though he’s probably hiding in the other store room. Maybe I should lock the door. Yes, that would be a wonderful idea.
“You should really lock the door, Shinya.”
“EH!?!”
I dropped from my seat, clinging to the side of the one desk that happened to be in this overly small store room. Kyo, I knew he was here, or had to be here. I really wish I had of locked the door earlier now.
“W-Why are you here?”
“Session.”
“How many is there?”
“As many as I think is necessary.”
I rolled my eyes, pushing myself up from the floor, restraining myself from making eye contact with the man. Before I could make a break for it, I felt a hand touch my shoulder. Turning round I shrugged my shoulder, wiping whatever germs he could have attached to my clothes, looking him up and down without saying a word.
“I couldn’t find you yesterday, Shinya.”
“I was ill.”
“In what way?”
That’s when I looked at his face. He knew fine rightly how I was sick and maybe that’s why he’s using it as if I am to make it an excuse. Which is fair to say I am, sort of. Then again, was I ill? Or was it….
“ Anyway, let’s get started.”
Watching his retreating back, I followed with the least interested expression possible to man. Kyo sat at one of the tables in the classroom, gesturing for my to join him. I felt like a rebel, I leaned against the counter top, arms folded against my chest, staring at the smaller man whom was at the other side of the room. A faint sigh was heard then a screeching of a stool being forced to move. I felt his presence in front of me, crossing his legs as he sat on the table.
“You hate human contact.”
“Huh?”
“Correct or not?”
“I-”
“Answer the fact.”
“Correct.”
“Good, now I got that out of the way, here.”
He walked back into the store room, coming back with a small box in his hands, setting it on the table. He took out a tag from his pocket, placing it in my hand and going towards the door. Turning slightly as he twisted the door handle he raised his hand with a grin, door closing after.
“What on earth…”
I stepped towards the box, lifting the lid cautiously I peeked within the dark depths of the square shape, having something wet lather my nose. I twitched, flipping the lid up, jumping back as a small animal popped up, a dog, clinging onto the rim of the box. Blinking I rendered closer, touched the small dog’s head slowly. It was so soft….cute.
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I sat on the edge of my bed, glancing back to the window every so often. Die has been out for an awfully long time. I don’t think he came back last night at all. I’m not worried, of course not, should I be?
“Argh, he’s an adult anyways.”
I stood beside the window, watching over all the people strolling by, minding their own business or so it seemed but really, they weren’t. All parasites. Walking deceivers, such disgusting things they are. I’ll never understand how they can live with themselves, no guilt or sorrow. A bunch of bugs, that’s all they are.
Leaning against the ledge, someone stood out amongst the crowd, a blue haired boy with a crutch. For some reason my heart ached. Did I know him….or do I? In a way, I want to know him but for what reasons, even I’m unsure. There’s just something about him, that I can relate with.
“Don’t run off by yourself!”
“Hm?”
That voice….
Looking behind the blue haired boy there was Die. Was he yelling to me , Or…that boy? Interested I leaned forward, trying to understand the situation even though there was a sense of anger growing over me, wanting myself to run down there, take Die back and find out about the boy at the same time. However, I was not going to do that. I would observe.
Looks like they’re having an argument. They obviously know each other in some way.
“Was this boy the reason Die didn’t come home last night?”
If that’s so then this would change everything.
Watching for the past 5 minutes of bickering, I was about to walk away, fed up with the dramatic scene, going to bring Die back whenever the noise stopped. I looked back to see the boy in Dies’ arms, lips locked.
Crack.
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“Ugh…where am I?”
I woke up, on the floor of somewhere I’m not used to. Basically I don’t know where the fuck I ended up. I hope I wasn’t drugged. I patted myself, underwear still on. Was not raped or fondled. Good so far. I stood up, examining my surroundings. Normal bedroom, just not mine. No Kaoru in sight, and a blue haired boy beside me-
“WHAT.”
I looked at his face, resting of my side. I moved his blue locks from his eyes. He was in a deep sleep. I hope this is his room or I don’t know what to make of this.
“Mhm…he’s pretty.”
With that his eyes shot open and I felt myself being flung to the floor. I looked up at the younger boy pinning me to the ground with wide eyes. He’s nuts!
“What did you say about me?! Pretty, PRETTY? I’LL GIVE YOU PRETTY!”
“WOAH.”
I rolled over, putting the boys’ arms above his head, kneeling on his legs, making him cry out in pain. I didn’t do Kendo for nothing.
“Okay, I’ll let you go when you answer me.”
“…….Go.”
“What’s your name?”
“Toshiya.”
“Okay, where are we?”
“My room.”
“Why?”
“You tell me.”
“What?”
“You asked me where I lived then dragged us here. Then…you kind of knocked yourself out and I didn’t know what to do with you.”
“Woah… I knocked myself out. How exactly?”
“You tripped over one of my boots and hit your head.”
“….So it was your fault.”
“You didn’t have to come into my house. That was your choice, Die.”
“That’s absurd and-”
I moved back.”
“How’d you know my name?”
“……Wow, you must be full of yourself.”
“Huh?”
“You told me if in the park earlier yesterday. You know, when I fell?”
“…………..Uh.”
He shrugged, jumping up and hopping towards his dresser. His bandaged leg was now red. Shit, I must have caused the wound to open again.
“Oh shit, let me mend your leg.”
“Stay away! You don’t even know me anyway.”
“But still…”
He turned back, cleaning his face of smudged make-up. He’s still pretty without the slap. He has issues, sort of reminds me of Kaoru…..
“Kaoru!”
“What?”
Now he was looking at me, oh, actually interested, Toshiya? He’s a strange boy.
“My room mate. I was trying to find him when-”
He looked up at me, placing the wipe in the bin as he watched me sit down on his bed. Crossing his leg, he leaned forward, awaiting for me to continue my sentence. It feels good…. To have someone want to listen to what you have to say.
“When I met you… the second time. I was trying to contact my friend, Kaoru but you were crying. Why?”
His whole expression changed. I must have hit a nerve in his brain or something. This does not look good.
He jumped up, well wobbled slight from his injury. I sat back, watching as he huffed flinging his hands and grabbing a coat. For some reason this felt like De ja vu , it’s happened before.
“Calm down, Toshiya!”
“I will NOT Calm down, I don’t have to explain anything to the likes of YOU!”
“WOAH, What’s that supposed to mean!?”
“YOU TELL ME.”
He ran out of room, more like a limp gone horribly wrong. And for some reason… I ran after him. Like a scene out of sickly done romance film. Man runs after….man? Whatever, I’m gay anyway.
I chased him all the way into the city centre. Damn, for a guy with a fucked up leg, he sure can run.
“Toshiya! STOP.”
“NO, WHY SHOULD I?”
Again… why should I? And why the hell was I chasing him? I was concerned but for what reasons and why. Maybe it’s cause he’s younger or he shouldn’t be allowed out on his own. That’s it.
“Please, stop running, Toshiya! Your leg will get worse!”
“STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CARE!”
“I DO CARE!”
Wait, what? Did I just say, no, scream that?
He stopped, turning to me, continuing his earlier antics but in a lower tone and much close to my person. I have to be honest, I was a bit unsure of myself and a little frightened. I started to bicker back, not even knowing what was coming out of my mouth at this point. I was just staring at his face. His features, he was defiantly a beaut. He must be at least a year or so younger than myself.
“Are you even listening!?”
He was on the bridge of tears once again, this time I had no idea what to do or why he was so emotional! He’s like half man, half woman! And that’s when my body took over.
“DIE-”
My arms pulled him into my chest, taking his lips with my own. I felt his arms wrap round my neck, his muscles easing into the embrace, tears flowing down his cheeks.
He just needed a little cry and someone to be there.
But what did I need?
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It started to rain, strange, it was so bright a minute ago. I heard a small cry, looking down I see the small dog shivering behind my leg. My heart jumped, that was the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. To think I just got enjoyment from a small thing being scared shitless.
I bent down, cradling the puppy in my arms, covering it with my coat. I must be mad. I’ll be soaked by the time I get home. Not like it matters anyway, mother’s probably away out again with his posh friends and Father… work.
I closed the front door, putting the dog down to view the smaller world down there I hung my coat on the radiator just as the doorbell rang.
“We’re only in the door, who could that be?”
I open the door to reveal a man, soaked right down to the soles of his shoes. It was when I looked up that I realised why he was at my door.
“K-Kaoru!”
He gave me a smile, as he walked into the hallway., slipping his drenched shoes into the corner, his hand and coat on a neglected hanger.
“W-Why are you here? Does Die know you’re here-”
“Shhh, Die doesn’t care where I am. And is it wrong I want to see you, Shinya?”
“Ah..I, I don’t know…”
I felt him push me up against the wall, hands planted on my hips like chains. Kaoru is strong, always had been for as long as I can remember. When we played games in the garden as kids, he’d always knock me out. Not that it mattered, for when I woke up he was there, caring for me. Or shitting himself that his mum would nag him. One or the other.
“Kaoru, what are you talking about?”
“Nothing, just you.”
“Me?”
“You, I want only you.”
He slid his tongue into my mouth, I wasn’t sure whether to shove him off or wrap my arms round his neck. Pulling me closer to his torso, I chose to places my hands on his face, making the kiss more intimate. I could hear the puppy coming closer, the tiny steps clicking against the wooden floor.
Kaoru descended onto my neck, licking and nipping, I looked to the other side, seeing the small dog sitting in amusement. Should such a young thing be seeing this? Is it wrong?
Something inside me gave me a sickly feeling and I lowered my head. Kaoru stopped and leaned down, putting his hands against the wall.
“What’s wrong?”
I shook my head, his gaze turned to the dog.
Kaoru wasn’t sure what to do. To lift it or kick it. However, if Shinya let it inside then he must like the thing. The question was, where did he get it?
“Miyu”
“Hm?”
“I named her Miyu.”
“Ah……”
Kaoru removed his hands from the wall, stepping closer to the dog who seemed to shiver in fright. He carefully lifted the small creature, setting it into the kitchen and closing the door.
“What are you doing?”
“Shhhsh.”
The door clicked. Kaoru headed towards me, his hands returned to venture down my torso. Some people might disagree with this, not just the sexuality but the age difference. Sure I was 17, almost 18 but Kaoru was 19 going on 20.
“K-Kaoru…..”
I know he didn’t truly want me. He want’s Die, always has. Even though I’ve never met the guy, you can just tell that he cares greatly for him. He sounds like such a nice guy this Die. I wish to meet him one day to understand Kaoru’s feelings.
“Shinya.”
“Hm…-”
Kaoru pulled me up, flinging me over his shoulder. The shock took me first before I realised he was taking down to my bedroom. I wasn’t ready for that! No, he wouldn’t. He couldn’t.
Could he?
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