well now. i really wish i was a more definite person and that i'd stick to ONE DAMN DECISION. didn't i tell you how much i missed daniel? i still do. im pretty sure. i looked at his arm and noticed he was wearing the hemp bracelet i made him way back when for his b-day. and i was asking him "you're still wearing that?" and he's all "the person who ( Read more... )

okay. it has been 5 days since i broke up with daniel. or 6. between 5 and 6. okay that doesn't matter. what does matter is that this entire week, i've been regretting what i've done. and a few times it has gotten so bad that i just cried. =\ and when daniel actually did talk to me one time online, he "dedicated" the song "addicted" by simple plan ( Read more... )

i broke up with him. yeah. well i didn't do it in the mean, "i'm dumping you, loser" way that some girls do. i mean, he probably was expecting this after he read the long letter i wrote him friday. but still, i ended it. i briefly explained to him in person that i believed it would be better if we got to know each other as friends. and we could get ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do. i've been feeling guilty lately about not showing affection towards daniel. but this is because my love for him is dissipating.. i don't even really think i 'loved' him.. just as a friend.. and i think that it would be best to stay friends.. i can hardly look him in the eye when we talk.. if we ever do.. there's never been ( Read more... )

see above ^_^

okay. my parents suck. on the phone earlier with my mom at band camp (heh), she was telling me that i could only take dance classes at the studio this year under certain "conditions," which include getting straight A's, studying at least 2 hours for the SAT every weeknight & also on the weekends, 'decreasing' my "social life"..ok i dont have one, ( Read more... )

GUESS WHO'S BACK!!!!!!!?? that's right kids. suzan is. =D wow how i've missed you so.. all of you. well. i have to shower.
*note: the indication above that i'm feeling 'jubilant' is my emotion BEFORE i realized that i have to go to band camp tomorrow. all day. for 2 weeks. but yeah.

ahhh! this is it, you guys. *takes a deep breath* i'm leaving to UCSD. well i should probably eat something first. although i don't feel that hungry. *DUN DUN DUN!* [screeching of ominous-sounding violins being played] ARMAGEDDON HAS ARRIVED!! hah. wait. i am hungry. =P teehee.. OMG i could not sleep at all last night. and it wasn't because of " ( Read more... )

hmm. i've been slacking on updating my entries. anywho, i'm leaving fairly soon to san diego. and tomorrow i'm leaving from our la jolla condo [oooh ahhh =P] to UCSD. which is where i will reside for the following 3 weeks. yep. i really hope it's worth going to. i mean my folks paid over 2 grand.. oh well, not my money. but yeah, i'm just nervous ( Read more... )

i have nothing to say, really. except i'm pissed that mr. sullivan [one of the school counselors] called to say there's a "conflict" with my schedule for next year. but i won't go into detail because i really don't have the energy to explain lol. uuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. okay. 5 more days till i'm free of this caged cell for 3 weeks. ( Read more... )