Monday. Monday's are terrible. Every other Monday that is. They make me feel low. Pitiful low. Useless low. Every other Monday is when I fill out my unemployment claims form and drive myself over to WV while feeling bad about myself for not having a job. I was hoping today would be a break from routine and tried to stop at Danial's place on my way ( Read more... )

I got in rather late last night. Ended up going to St. Clairsville for some important bar info, that really wasn't as important as I thought it was going to be. Woke up at the ass crack of dawn to take Jake to take his GED test. From what he said, he did well. Hopefully we hear something about that in the next 10 days. I'd really like for him to ( Read more... )

In the past 3 years I've gained back all 80 lbs that I worked my ass off to lose. The first 40-ish lbs was my fault, due to drinking and eating nothing but chinese food, fast food, and junk food. The rest came a little faster and more recently. It was mainly due to stress, locking myself in the house, and eating to comfort myself. As soon as I get ( Read more... )

I just downloaded season 5 of grey's anatomy.

1. because i'm a pirate.
2. because it's not out on dvd yet, like the other 4 i've bought.
3. because i missed the entire season on tv.

I really don't think a tv series has ever made me cry so much. seriously. (haha, get it, seriouslyI remember when I first started watching it, I basically locked ( Read more... )

So, my rebound(jacob) from the breakup with no closure(danial) moved here in february. I figured out that it was just a rebound, and there really wasn't anything there. We broke up, and he's been living on my couch for the past 3 weeks. It's awkward. I don't like not wanting to be in my living room with the douchebag that won't talk to me and acts ( Read more... )

I always thought I had my shit together when I was younger. Whatever I didn't have together I figured would just fall into place. Not the case.
New goal for myself.

Visit Belmont Tech.
Check out nursing program.
Cave in and do something I didn't really want to just to get paid.

I think I've reached a point in my life where I'm tired of

he still loves me.

Since May, I've done a lot of feeling sorry for myself. I did a lot of not going to work, a lot of not paying my bills, and a hell of a lot of using my credit cards for everything and anything imaginable. Since the end of August, I've done a lot of working, a lot of healing, and a lot of not spending money on things I don't need. So in the two ( Read more... )

You know the youtube video about getting a "text message breakup" done by the same crazy guy that did the "shoes" video? anyway, i got one of those... a text message breakup. now I'd already considdered the relationship (or whatever you want to call it) over. I never loved the boy, I wanted out of the relationship the day I got into it, and we'd be ( Read more... )

and by stellar, I mean entirely not stellar at all ( Read more... )