I've been thinking too much lately. I kinda feel like crap for some odd reason. ::shrug:: I dunno what's wrong with me. I just feel so out of it. At least I could stay out pretty late. I can take some good ass walks. Um, let's see. Yesterday was uber fun. I went to work around 4 instead of 12 like I was planning to. Got out at 8 and went to Urartu ( Read more... )

Well, I decided after talking to Sergio on the phone that I have no clue who knows the most about me and so I'm gonna make a test to see who knows me the most. It'll maybe have 100 questions and they'll be random stuff I remember about myself. Cause, well, I'm really slow. Julio knows exactly what I'm talking about ( Read more... )

I'm not mad at Julio anymore. I know I'm really naive, but c'mon. We all have a really big flaw. Mine is lying when I feel I'm being threatened, or that I need to hide something. It's a defense mechanism. Julio's is saying shit about people. He liked a chick one time and he still said shit behind her back, so I guess it's his flaw. Sergio wants to ( Read more... )

Why are guys so fucking two-faced. WTF is fucking Julio's problem. He's always inviting me to go out, always talking to me online, always hugging me, he's sharing lockers with me, yet, he talks shit behind my back. I don't get it. I just don't fucking get it. Why does he make things so complicated???? I'm gonna have a talk with him on Monday and ( Read more... )

Things have been going pretty well. I'm really pissed off at my sister and somewhat mad at my dad. Well, as everyone knows, I just hate my sister. I just can't stand her. I understand that she never sees our dad, but she's basically killing him. My dad, feeling bad for never being there for her in person, has always sent her money every month for ( Read more... )

dat's da question...r things reely going better between me & serg. a lot has happened since da last time i rote in here. hm...lets c. serg reely likes alex ellis. which reely pisses me off...but rite now all i care bout is habin da frendship i had w/ him b4 dis all happened. it's getting dere. he talked 2 me da other day. he aske y i wuz so bummed ( Read more... )

well...y is life such a bitch? i dunno. so don't ask me. i found out a new way 2 answer my fone. lol. it's "suicide hotline...this is jezz." hahaha. 2dai wuz extremely boring. i wuz online basically all day. i changed my sn. it's xdrugxabuserx. i dunno y. i guess i'm considering it. i hab nothing 2 live 4...so...y not ruin it. dat's my motto. or ( Read more... )

luv has always seemed 2 find a way 2 bite me in da ass. everything wuz going just fine until tuesday, january 6th, 2004. everything just went down the drain dat day. i can't stand da idea of me loving sum1 & dem loving me bak...but we can't b 2gether cuz he's 2 afraid dat he's gonna hurt me cuz of all da anger he has. 2 me...i don't give a shit if ( Read more... )