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[xdxhxcx]

I am so fuckign angry right now. I turned 20 this weekend, made out with my friends girlfriend, broke up with my boyfriend, got lost in nyc, and its looking like jumping off a bridge might be next on the list. Not actually of course, but the old razor blade is sure looking friendly tonight. ive come to realize that i will always be misunderstood

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[xoxojb]

"and were open and honest with each other"-- being open & honest with the people i care about is always something that i've been too good at. i base my life around being true to myself and true to the people i care about.

"i will be livign the way i want to be and doign the things i actually want to be doing"-- one of my favorite qoutes is: "Never let anyone tell you how to live your life." i agree.. do what you want to be doing, what you feel is right. it might not, and probably won't be, "right" to most other people.. but if it's right to you, then that's all that matters.. and eventually, you'll find people to share your life w/ that feel the same way.

"does anyone know what im talking about?"-- i'm pretty sure i do know what you're talking about. although we're so similar in so many ways.. we're also a little different.. and although we're not exactly alike w/ the things we believe, i just understand you in this different way that most people don't understand girls like us. ...i think you know what i'm saying??

"i decided today

[xdxhxcx]

i love this girl :)

[xoxojb]

::biggest smiles ever:: & ((mutual feelings))

HAPPY 20 years of fucking life up

[xoxojb]

yeah sure its fine to go around being with other people. But cheating with your good friends girlfriend NOW THATS FUCKED UP. It shows absolutly no respect for your friends. ITs all about your self and your feelings you were told not to get involved with that and yet you still interfeared. You love to present your self asa caring person but there are so many hidden signs that prove you are actaully all about your self. You cant even repect your friend's wishes. Cant even keep your promise not messing around with other people. Go sell your self b/c you arnt making through here at least you can make some money there. and if you had any doubts if i am pissed. i have never been so mad at someone. this is 10 fold of what happened with nick.

yup, I'm numb

[njemokid]

hey I have always admired your free spirit jess. I know that we are the same age basically, but I look up to you because you have always seen the world differently. Also you don't just take the shit you are given and say ok I will make this work; you say fuck that I'm gunna do it my way. So I say keep on fighting and don't tie yourself down, because I have in school and basically my future and I know I may turn out misserable and regret not opening my own record store. So yeah, I think you are awesome and don't change.

Re: yup, I'm numb

[xdxhxcx]

I have a lot of respect for you also. For some people school is great... SOme people have always known exactly what direction they want their life to go in. I dont mean to depress anyone who has set their life up this way, i just kinda doubt that every single person who is in college actually wants to be there, but they feel to trapped to leave. As long as you are happy with where youre at, then why would you change it? I know you wont be miserable, you have always cared too little about the trends that tend to control people our age. Just know that if you ever dont want to be somewhere, you can leave.
good to here from you cuz :)

Re: yup, I'm numb

[east_side_beat]

life sucks...and then you die jess...didnt u know that?