emo
ok
so at this point in my life
i hate myself and want to die
i get way to emotional over stupid shit
like rejection
and my cat running away
even not finding the remote
there's these two girls who i really really like
and ironically enough
theyre the two who are in my
list of girls who i've totally fucked my chances up with
and i know its my fault
because my standards are "too high"
and i can't help that
why would i go out with someone i don't like
and i really really really like these 2
and i know they dont like me
at all
because im a fucking queer
and nobody likes me
and they have every right to hate me
because i bet you that of the 200 people on my list
i have been mean to all of them at least once
im a fucking asshole
and i dont belong here
the world is too good for me
nothing i do is right
i kiss boys
"dont lift me up, if there's strong intent on dropping me back down, are you liek this, afraid to be yourself"
bayside makes me cry now
i miss jerry
i want sofía here
i want everything to be back to normal for me
ever since about april
my life has been a downward spiral
now i smoke pot
and will probably end up dead in the hospital from a cocaine overdose
so like i said
i hate mysef and want to die
but if you actually took your time and read this
then you deserve some credit
thank you for caring
or not
w.e
♥ Ed