i feel realy dirty. i feel realy low in myself and i dont know why. i feel like people look down on me all the time. i feel that everyone else is beter than me. i feel like i shame myself. i feel like everything i do is wrong, and everything i do brings me further down. i cant see what im doing wrong but i know that its wrong. i hate the way i am ( Read more... )

loads of my friends are realy happy atm which in turn is making me happy.. for them... gemma and dean had some little fall out over the weekend which was all sorted by sunday afternoon after id stuck up for his ass.. i actually do think theyr perfect for each other, apart from i dont think anyone's good enough for gemma so ya know ( Read more... )

it seems right now that i cant do anything right. everything i have anything to do with seems to get fucked up beyond belief. im scared im losing someone who means so much to me. i wish i didnt get dragged into things that have nothing to do with me, it just ends up even more complicated and fucked than it already was and i dont mean to sound self ( Read more... )

great night at city thankyou gemma. dont have a clue how im gona sleep untill all this wears off, im fucked.

woo my weekend officially starts tomoro :) im going out with gemma cos its her bday prolly end up in city or something, then gona come back here for about 2 hours of sleep before colege o friday :S dont think im gona be able to stay totally awake but nm. friday night im off to birmingham to see from autumn to ashes. never seen them before so im ( Read more... )

These happy thoughts that cross your mind they’re never meant to become to a reality. The sense of perfection transmitted into an alter ego sense of mind. A mistaken fortune you cannot help but wish you’d never dreamt of ( Read more... )

ok so thats like 2 days down of the week ( Read more... )

seems like iv been off for ages now iv had to go back to college.. i swear i did fuck all last weekand have so much work to do it sucks ( Read more... )

its sometimes surprisingly hard to find words for emotions. theres some feelings you can have that are too strong/odd for words to describe them. these are the ones you cant express, the ones that bottle up inside you and wreck you. that burn you from the inside out and tear you up.. and its fucking painful..

too early to be up on a sunday, specially after having about 3 hours sleep. i dropped at about half 10 last night, and i duno what it was but it must have been fucking good seein as i was still high as a kite at like 5 this morning. couldnt get to sleep till baout 7 so im not feeling too clever now ( Read more... )