Ficlet
((Part Three. Thanksgiving with the Hogarts, an unexpected visitor. Kind of long. but read all to understand.))
Isn't it hard. Standing in the rain.
You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear though you're screaming so loud
Darcy just stared at them. She knew very well that Ellie and Jay were still going out, and it was unfair to Ellie that her boyfriend had apparently another girlfriend.
“Please excuse me…” Darcy said as she headed to the restroom to use her cell phone.
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The black CD case, her sanctuary, her sanity, her immediate release she had gone so long without! She unzipped it. The sound of the zipper even sounded pleasing…
She picked up the razor, rolled up her sleeve and-
Her cell phone rang.
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“Hey Ell, its D…I think you should see something.”
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All Darcy had told her was to meet her at Jays Grandma’s house in Montreal. Ellie hung up with Darcy and zipped up her black CD case. She stuffed it away with all the papers and books until it was well hidden and out of plain sight.
She quietly left the house…and she went unnoticed.
The bus ride seemed longer than usual. Maybe because it made so many unnecessary spots before pulling into the Montreal station, according to D, Jays Grandma’s was only two blocks away from her. Ellie decided to walk.
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The family laughed and talked amongst each other. Darcy returned and everyone finished their dinner quickly. Mouths full and stomachs satisfied, they all retreated to the porch outside, where they were setting up a poker game.
Jay was teaching Heather how to play.
There was a knock on the door. Darcy prepared herself, there was going to be a major showdown…maybe this wasn’t the best idea, but it was too late now to tell Ellie to go and turn back.
Jay’s mother answered the door and came out to the porch where D and the rest of them were.
“Darcy…Ellie is here to see you,” Jay’s mother said.
“What?” Jay dropped his cards, they fell all over the table and onto the floor, and the jokers were the only cards facing up now. Heather got up and decided to move away from the table. Darcy looked at Jay with an obvious sneer on her face.
Jay’s mother walked into the porch, followed by Ellie.
“What are you doing here?” Jay asked.
“Darcy called me,” she smiled. “Happy Thanksgiving,” she walked over to him and gave him a hug, which he didn’t return. “Something wrong?”
She looked around. Everyone was staring at her as if she were a fish out of water. She snapped the new rubber band she had put on her wrist as Heather appeared from the shaded corner and put her hands on Jay’s shoulder.
“What’s going on?” she looked at Jay.
“So this is your ex!” Robby said, obviously not comprehending the awkward silence. The rest of the family retreated into the living to avoid any complications. “I can see why you picked Heather, man.” He chuckled and shook his head, walking back inside the house.
“I see…” Ellie said, looking down. This was utterly the worst Thanksgiving she had ever experienced. Darcy walked over to Ellie.
“I’m really sorry, Ell…you deserved to know,” Darcy whispered to her.
Ellie just nodded. She had stopped snapping the rubber band. She turned around and walked inside the house, passing the happy family members all getting along…none of them yelled at each other, they all seemed to happy and carefree to do so. Why didn’t her family get along…that’s what families were suppose to do…why did hers have to be so distorted.
She walked out the door and shut it softly behind her, taking a slow walk back to the bus station. She got on the bus, the fifty dollars she spent to get here was wasted.
The bus arrived at Toronto station and Ellie made her way to the park when her cell phone rang once again.
Spin's laying in his bed, reeling over the past few nights. He needed to talk to someone who would understand him. He dials Ellie’s number.
Ellie answers. "Nash speaking"
"Nash, this is Mason, I need you stat" he tried to suppress his laugh
She tried to stifle a laugh, "Is that so? Will snickers be included?"
"Definitely"
"Then I'll be over soon" she hung up and got her bag. Anywhere was better than going back to her house right now. She knocked on his door a half hour later. He thrusted a bag of snicker mini's at her and pulled her inside
The two talked about his father and Ellie told him that her and Jay broke up, though didn’t tell him the entire story.
She bit her lip. "But you've change, Gav."
He nodded "I like to believe that I have.." he said sadly
"Don’t do this to your self." she looked at him, her eyes meeting his and then quickly looked away.
He looked up at her "I can’t do this. Emma is coming at me like some love hungry vulture, Manny is missing, and you.... you.." he looked at the ceiling and half smiled
"What about me?"
"You've always been there, you've always made things so clear..." He leaned down and kissed her softly..
She pulled away for a second. "We shouldn't" she whispered against his lips.
Spinner didn’t listen and kissed her again. "We need each other Ellie.. One way or another, we need each other" he said against her lips.
This is wrong..she thought but it didn't stop her from kissing him the way she did. His hands roamed her body, knowing where to touch, where to caress, knowing everything. They almost had gone all the way when Spinner stopped and pulled back.
"El.. oh god..."
"Hm?" she said, still relaxed.
"You're right... We.. we cant..." he looked away, ashamed he had let himself do this to her.. again. "I mean.. I.. I'm sorry.."
"So you brought me here to have sex with me and then expect me to leave right after? I'm not one of your dad's whores" she grabbed her shirt and pulled it over her, getting up and trying not to cry.
"El, I didnt mean for it to happen. I don’t want you to think that’s what I wanted you to come by for.. Fuck! El..." he didn’t know what to say
"What do you want from me!" she went to the door.
"I want you in my life!"
She shook her head. "No, you want me because you know in the end I'll always go back to you, no matter how much you fuck up"
"That’s not true Ellie and you know that"
"Then tell me the truth. You want me in your life then why did you do this"
"Because I miss you"
"Then be with me"
"I didn’t wanna do something that we would regret" he said sadly
"The fact that we almost did doesn’t make it any better" She sighed. "What are we going to do Gavin.."
He shook his head "I don’t know..."
"I do" she walks out and leaves.
TBC in a short ficlet.
Isn't it hard. Standing in the rain.
You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear though you're screaming so loud
Darcy just stared at them. She knew very well that Ellie and Jay were still going out, and it was unfair to Ellie that her boyfriend had apparently another girlfriend.
“Please excuse me…” Darcy said as she headed to the restroom to use her cell phone.
-----------
The black CD case, her sanctuary, her sanity, her immediate release she had gone so long without! She unzipped it. The sound of the zipper even sounded pleasing…
She picked up the razor, rolled up her sleeve and-
Her cell phone rang.
-------
“Hey Ell, its D…I think you should see something.”
----
All Darcy had told her was to meet her at Jays Grandma’s house in Montreal. Ellie hung up with Darcy and zipped up her black CD case. She stuffed it away with all the papers and books until it was well hidden and out of plain sight.
She quietly left the house…and she went unnoticed.
The bus ride seemed longer than usual. Maybe because it made so many unnecessary spots before pulling into the Montreal station, according to D, Jays Grandma’s was only two blocks away from her. Ellie decided to walk.
------
The family laughed and talked amongst each other. Darcy returned and everyone finished their dinner quickly. Mouths full and stomachs satisfied, they all retreated to the porch outside, where they were setting up a poker game.
Jay was teaching Heather how to play.
There was a knock on the door. Darcy prepared herself, there was going to be a major showdown…maybe this wasn’t the best idea, but it was too late now to tell Ellie to go and turn back.
Jay’s mother answered the door and came out to the porch where D and the rest of them were.
“Darcy…Ellie is here to see you,” Jay’s mother said.
“What?” Jay dropped his cards, they fell all over the table and onto the floor, and the jokers were the only cards facing up now. Heather got up and decided to move away from the table. Darcy looked at Jay with an obvious sneer on her face.
Jay’s mother walked into the porch, followed by Ellie.
“What are you doing here?” Jay asked.
“Darcy called me,” she smiled. “Happy Thanksgiving,” she walked over to him and gave him a hug, which he didn’t return. “Something wrong?”
She looked around. Everyone was staring at her as if she were a fish out of water. She snapped the new rubber band she had put on her wrist as Heather appeared from the shaded corner and put her hands on Jay’s shoulder.
“What’s going on?” she looked at Jay.
“So this is your ex!” Robby said, obviously not comprehending the awkward silence. The rest of the family retreated into the living to avoid any complications. “I can see why you picked Heather, man.” He chuckled and shook his head, walking back inside the house.
“I see…” Ellie said, looking down. This was utterly the worst Thanksgiving she had ever experienced. Darcy walked over to Ellie.
“I’m really sorry, Ell…you deserved to know,” Darcy whispered to her.
Ellie just nodded. She had stopped snapping the rubber band. She turned around and walked inside the house, passing the happy family members all getting along…none of them yelled at each other, they all seemed to happy and carefree to do so. Why didn’t her family get along…that’s what families were suppose to do…why did hers have to be so distorted.
She walked out the door and shut it softly behind her, taking a slow walk back to the bus station. She got on the bus, the fifty dollars she spent to get here was wasted.
The bus arrived at Toronto station and Ellie made her way to the park when her cell phone rang once again.
Spin's laying in his bed, reeling over the past few nights. He needed to talk to someone who would understand him. He dials Ellie’s number.
Ellie answers. "Nash speaking"
"Nash, this is Mason, I need you stat" he tried to suppress his laugh
She tried to stifle a laugh, "Is that so? Will snickers be included?"
"Definitely"
"Then I'll be over soon" she hung up and got her bag. Anywhere was better than going back to her house right now. She knocked on his door a half hour later. He thrusted a bag of snicker mini's at her and pulled her inside
The two talked about his father and Ellie told him that her and Jay broke up, though didn’t tell him the entire story.
She bit her lip. "But you've change, Gav."
He nodded "I like to believe that I have.." he said sadly
"Don’t do this to your self." she looked at him, her eyes meeting his and then quickly looked away.
He looked up at her "I can’t do this. Emma is coming at me like some love hungry vulture, Manny is missing, and you.... you.." he looked at the ceiling and half smiled
"What about me?"
"You've always been there, you've always made things so clear..." He leaned down and kissed her softly..
She pulled away for a second. "We shouldn't" she whispered against his lips.
Spinner didn’t listen and kissed her again. "We need each other Ellie.. One way or another, we need each other" he said against her lips.
This is wrong..she thought but it didn't stop her from kissing him the way she did. His hands roamed her body, knowing where to touch, where to caress, knowing everything. They almost had gone all the way when Spinner stopped and pulled back.
"El.. oh god..."
"Hm?" she said, still relaxed.
"You're right... We.. we cant..." he looked away, ashamed he had let himself do this to her.. again. "I mean.. I.. I'm sorry.."
"So you brought me here to have sex with me and then expect me to leave right after? I'm not one of your dad's whores" she grabbed her shirt and pulled it over her, getting up and trying not to cry.
"El, I didnt mean for it to happen. I don’t want you to think that’s what I wanted you to come by for.. Fuck! El..." he didn’t know what to say
"What do you want from me!" she went to the door.
"I want you in my life!"
She shook her head. "No, you want me because you know in the end I'll always go back to you, no matter how much you fuck up"
"That’s not true Ellie and you know that"
"Then tell me the truth. You want me in your life then why did you do this"
"Because I miss you"
"Then be with me"
"I didn’t wanna do something that we would regret" he said sadly
"The fact that we almost did doesn’t make it any better" She sighed. "What are we going to do Gavin.."
He shook his head "I don’t know..."
"I do" she walks out and leaves.
TBC in a short ficlet.