Living In the Past Book 2 Chapter 3A
Ok, before I give up the link let me just say that this one has some sex in it and I find it incredibly embarrassing to post for some reason. But I tried to make it as tasteful as I possibly could. Anyway here it is.
Living In the Past Book 2
Chapter 3:
Secrets of the Night
By Xenamungrrr
“We have to talk.” Varia said as she placed herself between Eve and the door to her own hut, crossing her arms to make it clear that she didn’t intend to move.
“We really don’t.” Eve said, reaching for the door handle then jerking her hand back when she was blocked by the bare skin on the side of Varia’s well toned abdomen.
The Queen noticed her violent reaction and unfolded her arms while stepping closer to the Messenger. “You have worked so hard to find a way to make up for your past with every person you come across; why am I any different?” She asked.
Eve backed away as she approached and spoke. “I have told you countless times how sorry I am for what I did to you and your sister and I would tell you every day for the rest of my life if I thought that would bring her back”
“But you won’t so much as stay in the same room with me long enough to hear how I feel.” Varia said, still moving closer.
“Because I can’t, Varia; it would hurt too much.” With her last word a tear shook loose from her eye as her back abruptly met the wall.
Varia slowed her approach and just looked at Eve’s sullen face before reaching out a hand to wipe the lonely tear away. “What are you so afraid of?” She asked.
Eve swallowed hard, and then spoke. “The mere possibility that, through time, you’ve somehow found a way to forgive me.” She slowly removed Varia’s hand from her cheek and held it before her; softly stroking the callused warrior skin. “I have crossed land and sea searching for atonement for the terrible things I’ve done and I will probably continue to do so for the rest of my life. Now, people are willing to forgive me my past as a ruthless murderer and give me the chance to show them the way of love, and I am so grateful for that forgiveness. But with you…” She paused and removed her eyes from the hand she was stroking up to the depths of the dark orbs in front of her. “I can’t explain it, but with you I don’t want to be forgiven. I want to apologize for a thousand years and never be forgiven.”
Varia’s brow furrowed and her heart ached for the pain the young Messenger was in.
“But why, Eve?” Varia asked and Eve dropped her head again and started to shake it. Varia grabbed her shoulders and forced her to face the situation. “No, you owe me this. You can accept it from so many other people, why not me?”
Eve’s heart was racing and she felt like she couldn’t breathe, but she pushed down her fear and reached her hands up to Varia’s face. “Because of this.”
Her tone was defeated and submissive, but she’d never been more in control of her own happiness than in that moment. With an aching slowness she moved her lips closer to the Queen’s; her eyes alternating attention on her destination and the intensely dark eyes staring back at her, until she finally closed her own upon contact. The kiss was soft, and unhurried. She’d planned for it to be brief, but the response she got from the dark warrior was unexpectedly receptive. Her thumbs stroked high cheek bones as she pulled back only far enough to allow herself the pleasure of dipping back in again. After the third dip she felt strong arms encircle her waist and clutch her back as Varia started to deepen the kiss with a small flick of her tongue against inviting lips.
It was then that Eve slowly pulled back and looked at the ground once more. Varia was breathing heavily and she couldn’t pull her eyes away from the young Messenger for anything in the world. She was internally debating whether her next move should be to talk to her or continue kissing her, but she didn’t have time to make that decision as Eve finally looked back up and decided to speak.
“Somehow,” Eve started off. “Between meeting you and being imprisoned by you…coming back and almost being killed by you… and holding you during one of your greatest times of need...” She took a deep breath. “I fell in love with you, Varia.”
“Eve, I-“She was cut off by the messenger.
“The thing is, because I’m in love with you I hate myself even more for what I’ve done. It makes me believe that I should have to live with that hate for the rest of my life.” She slowly pulled away from the Queen. “And I can’t do that if you forgive me.”
As Eve started to walk by her, Varia warred between letting the woman leave and continuing a conversation that was hard for both of them. In a matter of seconds she opted for the latter and grabbed Eve by the wrist and turned her around.
“I don’t accept that.” Varia said shaking her head with determination. “You made the decision a long time ago to take someone precious away from me; you don’t get to do it again. I don’t care how much it hurts because the fact of the matter is I have forgiven you, Eve, whether you like it or not. And the gods must truly be cruel to place such a burden on the both of us, because I fell in love with you too. We have to deal with it; we can’t run away and just pretend that it didn’t happen. I have to address the fact that I’m in love with the woman responsible for the death of my sister, and you have to wrestle with the idea of forgiving yourself enough to allow yourself the happiness of being loved.”
“I don’t deserve it.” Eve said sternly.
“And I don’t deserve to go through life wondering if I let go of my one true chance at happiness because I didn’t fight hard enough for it.” She paused, once again taking Eve by the shoulders. “Don’t you see how strong this thing between us must be given all the odds we’re up against? Are you really just going to throw it away because you’re too afraid to face your past?”
Eve looked on at her like a rabbit cornered by a wolf. She knew she was starting to lose this battle.
“I have no idea how we could possibly make this work.” She said.
“And that would place you in the shoes of every other person embarking on a new relationship.” Varia countered.
Eve was taken aback for a second by the truth of Varia’s reasoning, but still continued on against what felt like a lost cause. “I don’t even love myself, how can I possibly give you the kind of love you deserve?”
“You are capable of giving profound love to your friends and family, you’d simply be adding physicality to it by choosing to be in a relationship.” She moved in closer and raised her left hand to Eve’s face. “And judging by the kiss we just shared I can’t imagine you’d be lacking in that department.”
“I have a duty to spread the word of Eli, and that takes up a great deal of my time and energy.” She said, in a last ditch effort.
“And I have the monumental task of looking after the prosperity of some of the most obnoxious subjects to ever walk the Earth.” Varia said, putting her right hand around the Messenger’s back and pulling her close. “You got anything else? Because I must admit I’ve never had to work this hard to get a woman to kiss me a second time.”
“I’ve never been in love before.” Eve said; a small tremble working its way into her voice. It was her last excuse.
Varia softly smiled at this, then spoke. “Well at least we know we have one thing in common. Maybe it’ll make things easier if we figure it out together.”
They stared into each other’s eyes for seconds that felt like hours before finally moving in simultaneously for a kiss and a chance they both couldn’t help but take. Eve buried her hands in Varia’s dark locks and held nothing back. She nipped and sucked at the Queen’s lips and accepted equally ambitious movements of her companion. And when Varia’s tongue requested and was granted entry into her mouth both women moaned against each other. They pulled away only to catch their breath. When their eyes met they both smiled.
They both knew they had a long, extremely welcomed, night ahead of themselves.
Living In the Past Book 2
Chapter 3:
Secrets of the Night
By Xenamungrrr
“We have to talk.” Varia said as she placed herself between Eve and the door to her own hut, crossing her arms to make it clear that she didn’t intend to move.
“We really don’t.” Eve said, reaching for the door handle then jerking her hand back when she was blocked by the bare skin on the side of Varia’s well toned abdomen.
The Queen noticed her violent reaction and unfolded her arms while stepping closer to the Messenger. “You have worked so hard to find a way to make up for your past with every person you come across; why am I any different?” She asked.
Eve backed away as she approached and spoke. “I have told you countless times how sorry I am for what I did to you and your sister and I would tell you every day for the rest of my life if I thought that would bring her back”
“But you won’t so much as stay in the same room with me long enough to hear how I feel.” Varia said, still moving closer.
“Because I can’t, Varia; it would hurt too much.” With her last word a tear shook loose from her eye as her back abruptly met the wall.
Varia slowed her approach and just looked at Eve’s sullen face before reaching out a hand to wipe the lonely tear away. “What are you so afraid of?” She asked.
Eve swallowed hard, and then spoke. “The mere possibility that, through time, you’ve somehow found a way to forgive me.” She slowly removed Varia’s hand from her cheek and held it before her; softly stroking the callused warrior skin. “I have crossed land and sea searching for atonement for the terrible things I’ve done and I will probably continue to do so for the rest of my life. Now, people are willing to forgive me my past as a ruthless murderer and give me the chance to show them the way of love, and I am so grateful for that forgiveness. But with you…” She paused and removed her eyes from the hand she was stroking up to the depths of the dark orbs in front of her. “I can’t explain it, but with you I don’t want to be forgiven. I want to apologize for a thousand years and never be forgiven.”
Varia’s brow furrowed and her heart ached for the pain the young Messenger was in.
“But why, Eve?” Varia asked and Eve dropped her head again and started to shake it. Varia grabbed her shoulders and forced her to face the situation. “No, you owe me this. You can accept it from so many other people, why not me?”
Eve’s heart was racing and she felt like she couldn’t breathe, but she pushed down her fear and reached her hands up to Varia’s face. “Because of this.”
Her tone was defeated and submissive, but she’d never been more in control of her own happiness than in that moment. With an aching slowness she moved her lips closer to the Queen’s; her eyes alternating attention on her destination and the intensely dark eyes staring back at her, until she finally closed her own upon contact. The kiss was soft, and unhurried. She’d planned for it to be brief, but the response she got from the dark warrior was unexpectedly receptive. Her thumbs stroked high cheek bones as she pulled back only far enough to allow herself the pleasure of dipping back in again. After the third dip she felt strong arms encircle her waist and clutch her back as Varia started to deepen the kiss with a small flick of her tongue against inviting lips.
It was then that Eve slowly pulled back and looked at the ground once more. Varia was breathing heavily and she couldn’t pull her eyes away from the young Messenger for anything in the world. She was internally debating whether her next move should be to talk to her or continue kissing her, but she didn’t have time to make that decision as Eve finally looked back up and decided to speak.
“Somehow,” Eve started off. “Between meeting you and being imprisoned by you…coming back and almost being killed by you… and holding you during one of your greatest times of need...” She took a deep breath. “I fell in love with you, Varia.”
“Eve, I-“She was cut off by the messenger.
“The thing is, because I’m in love with you I hate myself even more for what I’ve done. It makes me believe that I should have to live with that hate for the rest of my life.” She slowly pulled away from the Queen. “And I can’t do that if you forgive me.”
As Eve started to walk by her, Varia warred between letting the woman leave and continuing a conversation that was hard for both of them. In a matter of seconds she opted for the latter and grabbed Eve by the wrist and turned her around.
“I don’t accept that.” Varia said shaking her head with determination. “You made the decision a long time ago to take someone precious away from me; you don’t get to do it again. I don’t care how much it hurts because the fact of the matter is I have forgiven you, Eve, whether you like it or not. And the gods must truly be cruel to place such a burden on the both of us, because I fell in love with you too. We have to deal with it; we can’t run away and just pretend that it didn’t happen. I have to address the fact that I’m in love with the woman responsible for the death of my sister, and you have to wrestle with the idea of forgiving yourself enough to allow yourself the happiness of being loved.”
“I don’t deserve it.” Eve said sternly.
“And I don’t deserve to go through life wondering if I let go of my one true chance at happiness because I didn’t fight hard enough for it.” She paused, once again taking Eve by the shoulders. “Don’t you see how strong this thing between us must be given all the odds we’re up against? Are you really just going to throw it away because you’re too afraid to face your past?”
Eve looked on at her like a rabbit cornered by a wolf. She knew she was starting to lose this battle.
“I have no idea how we could possibly make this work.” She said.
“And that would place you in the shoes of every other person embarking on a new relationship.” Varia countered.
Eve was taken aback for a second by the truth of Varia’s reasoning, but still continued on against what felt like a lost cause. “I don’t even love myself, how can I possibly give you the kind of love you deserve?”
“You are capable of giving profound love to your friends and family, you’d simply be adding physicality to it by choosing to be in a relationship.” She moved in closer and raised her left hand to Eve’s face. “And judging by the kiss we just shared I can’t imagine you’d be lacking in that department.”
“I have a duty to spread the word of Eli, and that takes up a great deal of my time and energy.” She said, in a last ditch effort.
“And I have the monumental task of looking after the prosperity of some of the most obnoxious subjects to ever walk the Earth.” Varia said, putting her right hand around the Messenger’s back and pulling her close. “You got anything else? Because I must admit I’ve never had to work this hard to get a woman to kiss me a second time.”
“I’ve never been in love before.” Eve said; a small tremble working its way into her voice. It was her last excuse.
Varia softly smiled at this, then spoke. “Well at least we know we have one thing in common. Maybe it’ll make things easier if we figure it out together.”
They stared into each other’s eyes for seconds that felt like hours before finally moving in simultaneously for a kiss and a chance they both couldn’t help but take. Eve buried her hands in Varia’s dark locks and held nothing back. She nipped and sucked at the Queen’s lips and accepted equally ambitious movements of her companion. And when Varia’s tongue requested and was granted entry into her mouth both women moaned against each other. They pulled away only to catch their breath. When their eyes met they both smiled.
They both knew they had a long, extremely welcomed, night ahead of themselves.