Once again.
Pertinent Facts
Name: Nicole
Age: N/A
Rating Requests: Xenosaga, please. I’d just like to say that I’ve undergone some massive change these last 6 months, so I don’t feel so bad about applying again.
Personality Questions
What are your likes/dislikes?: I love orderly things, video games, books, art, and classical music. I like swords, murder mysteries, murderous minds on trial, repetition, tea, the stars, cute staionary, Keiichi Sumi, and Camilla d’Errico. I hate prententious, snobby people, most of the human race [I’m a misanthropist at heart], the ignorant, idiots, people who blame things on “Human Nature”, clinginess, people who don’t take things seriously, and people who put you down in what you aspire to do. I dislike messes, the color brown, white furniture, and the ocean.
What are your fears/dreams?: My fear is that I will give into the darkness in my heart, and that I will hurt someone I should have never been able to touch. I fear that I come off as unkind, and that I will never love the people I’m supposed to as much as they love me. I dream that I can be a university professor and that I will live a solitary life in which I see my friends once a month. I also [somewhat foolishly, as I believe I’ll end up in a condo all my life] dream that I can live in a small house.
What are your favorite hobbies?: Reading, playing video games, listening to music, researching, plotting.
What are your pet peeves?: I hate it when people try to relate to me. Nobody really understands me.
Are you a leader or a follower?: I prefer to be neither, as I like to work on my own, but if I had to chose, I would say leader, because I have strong ideals.
Describe your personality: On my good points, I am an achiever. I am sensitive in how people treat me, but at the same time I have an incredibly difficult time reading people. Simple conversation and in depth discussions come easily to me, but how to react and when to react do not. I have learned about love, if only to know that it isn’t undying devotion. I know longer have anyone I love deeply, but I like my friends and family. I am kind, intellectual, driven, serious, solitary, a bookworm, and uncertain. On my bad points, I have a kind of blackness in my soul. I laugh at blood. I drink my own whenever I get a cut. This darkness is the ones that takes pleasure in the idea of raping young girls, or killing others. I rip the wings off flies. It’s my secret though, and I intend to never let it get the better of me. I can be really emotionally unavailable when I’m hurt. When I want to cut someone down, I’m merciless. All I really want is to be accepted for what I am. All of what I am. I like to smile and wear a suit and tie as regular attire. And that’s all I really have to say.
What would you do if you found $100 on the side of the road and didn't know who it belonged to?: Take it.
Thank-you.