You're waging a war on the self you've never met. It's a simple conflict of interests - he wants a smile and you want the world. What happened to limits? Were they washed away when the earth drowned out rationality? Or, were they exiled when society chased out intelligence? Can I play doctor now? I promise to pretend I know where everything fits. ( Read more... )

I've lost myself somewhere along the way. If you manage to find me, please, return to sender. Postage is covered anywhere within the realm of me. I snap my fingers and the world takes a leap. You snap yours and it makes my heart flutter. I could be queen for a day, magic for an hour and myself for a minute. Or a lifetime.. I haven't really decided ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm a million years old but trapped in the body of a child. I wish there was a way to forget everything I've ever gone through and just live life normally. But you can't put the words 'life' and 'normal' together. They're too big of an oxymoron. But when you think about it, life really is just one big oxymoron where everything ( Read more... )

This is our magic kingdom, full of redundancy and make-believe. Skyscrapers that scratch the clouds block the rays of a dying sun. We're not so wonderful and we're not so free. The atmosphere is shaking under the weight of all we've done and all we've seen. We're getting higher and higher and closer to bursting but we are crash test dummies now in ( Read more... )

You count the raindrops to infinity and beyond as they desaturate your world. I've got my magic markers to transform your chaotic blandness into a discoball of flashing neon lights. We're all looking for something, why not just create it?

The world spins while we dance. It's a sidestep romance where reality is elusive and the dreamers lose themselves in time. The stars map our nightmares; connect the dots to paint a bigger picture. And with the pitter-patter of little feet in our heads, we ring-around-the-rosie then we all fall down. Now gravity's playing tricks and up is sideways, ( Read more... )

The future stays the same. Every tomorrow collides with the next until all that is left is a charred blur of a yesterday so cookie-cutter perfect that we forget it. We forget ourselves because we'll never fit into the molds that we spend our entire lives searching for. We may as well gouge out our eyes for fear of finding one beautiful and unique ( Read more... )

Some things I wrote in this journal over a year ago that everyone might like to read ( Read more... )

There's been lots on my mind as those of you close to me have probably noticed. It's just been hard to properly form it all into something coherent. The seemingly important things can wait though ( Read more... )

Time goes by so fast. Not that time is ever measured at any different speed; we just perceive it as moving slowly or quickly depending on the situation to which it's being related. This makes one wonder, why DOES time seem to go by so quickly after certain events and yet proceed so slowly after others? What determines how one is going to perceive ( Read more... )