everything has a time line to follow and i think i keep taking pieces of ever other time line and i start to mold them into a time line fore myself, me, not any one else. im on day three and i still cant sleep right. i have no security when im alseep no warmth no touch or even the grunting noise u get in the morning =) and i miss having ( Read more... )

for some reason i have be depressed all day and i dont know why but the only thing actually made me happy was my friend nickie she kinda made my day by staying at work with me for no reason and made me laugh all day and i kind feel good that she stayed with me and it was nice.... but im depressed once more again and i hate that i cant get ( Read more... )

well i love that some one can always bitch about how much life sucks and how much " were not gonna make it" but in the end some one always has to say i dont believe in my self enough to take a chance and actually do something different and instead of falling back on security. but the only securtiy given is an online journal...... we always ( Read more... )

only time will tell for which doesnt suck any more but my birthday was cool.. i have wonderful friends and roommates that made it really special and i thank you all for coming and or trying to throw a shidig together and a special thanks to alexis and jeff hehe u guys know why =P nite y'all

sometimes i think im am alone becuz thats what life prescribes to me. god has taken my chance of happiness away for i am alone becuz he knows what is inhold for us. i am more than willing to have peace within myslef and knowning he exepts me for me and it hurts to fel that some u like knows that god has wanted to hurt him since he first saw like. ( Read more... )

the day ahs come for i am not alone.. a person has im me and come into my life and made thing so much more for i cant say " at last.. my love has come along... my lonely days are over and life is like a song!!!!!!! i have hopefully found some one and i am ahppy for i am not alone!!!

now today was the day we have official been in our apt. a month i cant believe it actually but everything seems to be okies now that the first months bills are payed but i thought id make a quick entry before work ttyl

for once in my life i actually have things going right for me and for some reason i don"t get it??? some one in my life is trying to rekindal something that i know could never be or could it? its flattering and as much as i wold not like to be alone i find myself wanting to be alone more than i do. i live with two roomates that have been by myside ( Read more... )

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u know just when u think life is going to be okay it shits on u.... and everything else deside to fuck u over and then u have to pee and some ones in the bathroom dam it i cant win im tired if games and lies and i wish life gave me a free pass to get somewhere besides work and home. but yeah enough about me how about those lions man they suck but ( Read more... )