If.you.make.the.world.a.stage.for.me.Then.I.hope.that.you.can.hear.me.scream.
Christmas was Thursday. Sorry you all missed it. *smirks*
I remember this time last year. I think about it when I stand out in the cold, how I was so dead inside. I took walks every night, sat down on sidewalks near route 138 and cried. I most vividly remember the busrides home from the basketball games, sitting with deirdre, freezing in our sweatshirts, listening to Disturbed. I miss the season, I miss the sport. This Christmas was so different from the last. Hard to explain really. Spent it sneaking beers up to my nana's attic with my cousin, the four of us kids walking down to Walpole Center, sitting on the playground swings Christmas night under the moonlight, The next day walking downtown to get buffalo chicken pizza. In the snow. I felt like everything was really divine and beautiful, just swinging there on the quiet playground so high with the moon so close...with a really amazing guy on my mind. I'm totally devoid of all worries right now. Sure, they're there..they'll come back at me sometime after this vacation. I'm not immune to the tragedies around me. But for now, I'm ready to try out my new skiis in Vermont. I can't wait to be with friends when I return and especially, to see alex. Our one year is the 28th! Holy shit.
I love you all. See ya sometime New Years =)
Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, never the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become…my perfect enemy…
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I’ll walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this…you’re better off this…
Maybe you’re better off!
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I’ll walk away and say, “You fucking disappoint me!”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!
Passive aggressive bullshit
PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE BULLSHIT!!!!!
I remember this time last year. I think about it when I stand out in the cold, how I was so dead inside. I took walks every night, sat down on sidewalks near route 138 and cried. I most vividly remember the busrides home from the basketball games, sitting with deirdre, freezing in our sweatshirts, listening to Disturbed. I miss the season, I miss the sport. This Christmas was so different from the last. Hard to explain really. Spent it sneaking beers up to my nana's attic with my cousin, the four of us kids walking down to Walpole Center, sitting on the playground swings Christmas night under the moonlight, The next day walking downtown to get buffalo chicken pizza. In the snow. I felt like everything was really divine and beautiful, just swinging there on the quiet playground so high with the moon so close...with a really amazing guy on my mind. I'm totally devoid of all worries right now. Sure, they're there..they'll come back at me sometime after this vacation. I'm not immune to the tragedies around me. But for now, I'm ready to try out my new skiis in Vermont. I can't wait to be with friends when I return and especially, to see alex. Our one year is the 28th! Holy shit.
I love you all. See ya sometime New Years =)
Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, never the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become…my perfect enemy…
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I’ll walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this…you’re better off this…
Maybe you’re better off!
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I’ll walk away and say, “You fucking disappoint me!”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!
Passive aggressive bullshit
PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE BULLSHIT!!!!!