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over for now
I knew someday it would have to end
I knew eventually I would have to go back to calling you friend
It's killing me that now that day has come
If it's for the best then where is this pain from
I know deep inside that this is what we had to do
but it's breaking my heart to walk away from you
I'm trying my best to appear strong
but it's hard when part of me says that in your arms is where I belong
I still love you with all my heart
that's not going to change even though we're apart
You were my first love and my first real kiss
There are so many of our special times I'm going to miss
All the words I ever said or wrote still hold true
But for now from a distance is where I'll be loving you
I think I need you as a friend to help me through
because there are things ypu can't control that are hurting me
We both have issues no one knows of
neither of us had the strength to be true to our love
Maybe we will be together again if it was meant to be
but for now I wont stop loving you
Even though I'm not your girlfriend I'll still be here
With a shoulder to cry on or a sympathetic ear
The story of love can be quicker than the blink of an eye
But our story won't be over until the day that we die...
Until We Meet Again, My Love
Always
I wish you were here
I wish you were close
and these are the times that I'm wishing the most.
I gave you that bracelet you wear on your hand
and like time in an hour glass, you slip away like sand.
I want you so bad, to hold, and to touch
and that is because I love you so much.
And I want you to know whatever you do
I will always be here
and I will always love you.
That Night
That one night I held you close in my arms
I shall remember that for all eternity.
At first I thought I was dreaming
But then I realized it was reality.
That was the happiest night of my life.
The night my dreams came true.
I was right next to you
Holding you tight and loving every moment of it.
When I kissed you it was perfect.
Nothing at that moment could have gone wrong.
I want that night to happen again.
With you, my love.
I want to hold you and kiss you again.
I want to be happy again.
I will remember that night forever.
And dream of it every night.
I love you.
Where are you now?
Sometimes I think of you
and wonder where you are
and if you think of me on lonely nights
or dream about me when there's nothing left to dream
I don't expect you to miss me
and I know the phone will never ring
with your voice hanging on the other line
but I have to know
if I'm in your thoughts
or if you forgot about me
like you promised you never would
I can't bear the thought
of what we shared
being nothing other than a footnote
in a forgotten chapter of your life
and even though I always think of you
during the loneliest hours of the night
Part of me is still hoping
that you're thinking of me too
when I'm busy not thinking of you
So shed not a tear for what we lost
nor heave a sigh for what could have been
Just let me grace your thoughts
when the night hangs long and low
and everything will be alright when we wake up
in the worlds we've created
in the long days we've been apart
Even Teardrops Aren't Free
I remember how it began
with tempers flaring and heartache nearing
We were saying words never meant to be said
and now we're hurting one another just because
we were too weak to face ourselves
We cry because we love
We cry because we care
But we forget that in this world
everything has a price
and that even teardrops aren't free
I held your head in my arms
and I tried to caress the pain away
But no matter how much I wiped your eyes
or took back the words I said
I couldn't stop you from hurting
and as pain creates pain
and suffering creates suffering
It becomes clear that we live in a world
where everything has a price
and even teardrops aren't free
As I'm driving off into the distance
I can see you standing there waving
with the tears still fresh on your face
I try to remember every word we said
and I try to understand the price I'm paying
as I speed into the darkness of uncertainty
leaving pieces of myself behind
pieces that are mere tokens demanded by a world
where everything has a price
and even teardrops aren't free
Now we're miles apart my love
and I haven't seen your face in years
but your pale blue eyes still haunt me
every night as I drift off to sleep
I hear you've moved on with your life
and that you've found another lover
one that only makes you smile
But I'm still crying my love
I'm still caressing the pain
and I'm still paying the toll claimed by this world
where everything has a price
and even teardrops aren't free
When I see You Sleeping
I don't know what it is about you
that always gets me this way.
But every time I see you sleeping
with your eyes fluttering gently
and your smile so warm and inviting
something deep inside breaks down
something frozen within melts
and washes away everything that's wrong
with the world as I know it.
For a brief moment the universe is perfect
and I feel I can do no wrong.
As I watch you clutch the sheets around you
pulling them warm and tight to your chin
I can find no fault in my life in the paths I have taken
or the decisions I have made.
I know that if my life were to end here and now
I would have reached the pinnacle of happiness
and perhaps some kind of deeper truth.
Because as I watch you sleep your perfect sleep
I know that even when happiness eludes my heart
and it seems the Gods are out to get me
that I can always borrow a smile
from your perfect dream
and a glimpse of a better world
in the reflections behind your fluttering eyes.
Just Five More Minutes
That night when I held you
the world just seemed so right
To this day I can’t believe
that the man in my arms was mine.
It’s like a cross between two dreams
to watch the rising sun dance across your face.
Just knowing that you’re there to wipe the tears
stops them before they fall down my face.
What twist of fate was it
that brought our two souls together?
Did the Gods just mercifully smile upon us?
or did nature make some mistake?
Was it all true? or just another fantasy?
Could that heart beating so close to mine
truly be in love with me?
Or was it just another illusion
one of nature’s cruelest tricks.
If so then all of that joy, all of that heaven
would be just another passing dream.
But if I was dreaming, then let me sleep
Let me spend five more minutes
just five more minutes like that
Because once I wake
If I wake
I know I’ll never love again
because a love like that
can’t be repeated
and a dream like that
you don't return to
Emptiness
Sitting alone in the dark of night
One bright and sunny day
I stared down a piece of paper
Not knowing what to say
I meant to pour my heart out
Let it bleed throughout my pen
But then the words they stifled
No thoughts came from within
It was then that I realized
My heart was empty black
No words to say nor tears to cry
Nothing left to attack
What can I write about nothing
Except it's pure and vast
Like an empty plain of rolling hills
Lies my heart until the last
I only know this emptiness
It's like groping in the dark
I only see this pain I feel
Along with it's ancient mark
It's only now I see myself
I see myself for what I am
Just an empty hollow creature
Frightened as a lamb
So I'll curl up with my word
And cry upon my ink
For every time I write now
I can feel my heart sink