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I'm officially the biggest failure you will ever met. I promise you that so don't tell me otherwise. I seem to never do anything right anymore. I hate when I get like this to becuase I have no one to blame but myself. I don't understand why I just got an attitude with my mom for trying tohelp me. Now all i feel is horrible since she wasn't even trying to do anything bad. It's probably since I came home and entered a bad mood once my sister was talking while iw as trying to watch the oc. That's only show I ever watch on tv and she couldn't let me flipping watch it. Ugh My legs and my abs hurt really bad. I ran hard at cc pratice today since I had stopped to talk to my mom now I'm paying for it. My mom said I need to go to the meet on Tuesday too. So now I'm not going to be able to get my haircut. Tomorrow is the football game which equals I have to spend time with badn kids which I'm not looking forward to doing. Everyday I go to school and I feel like I'm in my own little world since I hardly talk to anyone. I feel like I don't even want to talk to most of the people I see. I wish I could learn to be a better person, friend and daughter but seemingly I can't all I do is fail at it. I don't understand why I just can't do what my parents ask of me and not yell at them and agrue with them. I don't udnerstand why I have to talk abotu people when I'm angry just becuase of something they might of said or did. I don't understand why I hurt people and why I can't just make people happy. In the end it just hurts me. I wish I knew how to start conversations to. I don't amke good first impressions I have figured out. Normally I'm not a person who dwells on the fact that they don't have a bf. But really I feel like my so called prince charming is never going to come. I swear the good guys are far between. Where are all the ones who actaully care about a girl and not just user her or cheat on her? Maybe I'm just to picky as everyone tells me jsut anotehr thing I'm not good at. Now I've just sat here and typed a bunch of stuff that has no meaning. PLease don't give me the whole things will get better stuff. When is that going to happen. I've been trying on my own for so long now and I jsut can't do. I can't fix these things and I just don't want to do them anymore.