ok, so i finally started taking the 'effexor xr', which is an antidepressant (ironically, it is prescribed for my anxiety). weird huh? i took the first one yesterday. it makes me feel like i should be listening to sublime, mostly. but supposedly after about a week, i should just feel normal, but no panic attacks. i have my fingers crossed. xx ( Read more... )

x-a-n-a-x. xanax. repeat after me. i think this drug has saved my sanity. finally found something that doesn't mess with my head and body through 'side effects' but knocks the fuck outta my panic attacks. can i hear a halleluiah ( Read more... )

how i spend the first hour or so at work like checking my emails, personal ad responses, horoscope, livejournal, postgazette, other random crap. in some ways, it's rad, some ways lame. oh well ( Read more... )

things are going rather slowly on the personals site. is there NO ONE OUT THERE that is for me?? well, i'm supposed to meet up with 'will/mark' (the guy i dated for awhile about five years ago) sometime this weekend, and i might meet one other guy (jay) on sunday. the few guys i've written to that i might be interested in don't seem very ( Read more... )

the weekend was filled with varied crazy ass shit ( Read more... )

what the weekend will bring. that makes it all the better.

can't wait to see inside HALO. will report results of inspection on monday. :D

...with your halo slipping down....

funnie how watching the final two episodes of 'sex and the city' where all the gals become their real selves and happy, combined with an actual 'walk' and 'talk' with joe of HALO this morning can change my mood around :D ( Read more... )

last eve, i went for my ususal walk around 5:30. as is typical in the hood, i hear fire engines and police vehicles. however, as i was nearing the park at 12th street, i see an enormous cloud of smoke up toward 11th, so i go hurtling toward home, fear in my heart. i could not tell until i actually got up to bradish street what the fuck was going on ( Read more... )

the weekend sure had its ups and downs. saturday i went with kathy b to this cajun dance out in homestead. it was fun, and different. let me tell ya, that dancing is good exercise. the club was very interesting, a bulgarian club (weird, huh, cajun dancing in a bulgarian club, go figure ( Read more... )

well, not only do i feel like my kid doesn't like me, i hear bad news from her father. his business is not or was not doing very well, and he has the house at elm spring up for sale. this caused me to feel very sad, because i loved that house, and have a lot of fond memories relating to it. it also makes me feel bad for him, because he is really a ( Read more... )