Today was my first appt with my theripist since about 4 months ago.I desided I needed to go back because of all the problems.I had thought when I went that she would tell me that I should give up on me and Jeff. That was so not the case. She feels the same way that Jeff and I both do, we love each other,I chose him to spend the rest of my life with ( Read more... )

Was a pretty interesting day. School...what can I say,it's school. I have a hard time paying attention,or interacting with other students.I feel like I cant breath.dunno what to do bout that one.I guess it is offically time for meds. I have been putting that off for as long as I can think of.But I think that I am offically done with the panic ( Read more... )

Things going pretty well. Working lots,and school. Went to school today,like a dumbass,and left my books at work last night. I was so tired last night,I barely remember getting home. It's bad. Things at home doing ok. The kids are doing better in school,so they say.Would like to think that they are. I hope that they are. I hate having to ground ( Read more... )

Back to life as usual.I got up yesterday,the boys playing in thier rooms. Made breakfast,eggs,and toast. Sat in the livingroom for a while, enjoying the morning. Wrestling with Kay, and Jeff...Later on P.I.C came by,picked me up. She and I road around looking for a nice site to shoot in. Found a local spot,very beautiful. While she tooks pics I got ( Read more... )

Things for the past week or so have been some of the best,and worst times in my life.Slowly I feel a sense structure building. We all make mistakes,it's when we think light of those mistakes that we make them again. I refuse to loose my family,and the foundation of everything that I am.I have worked to long and too hard for it. Everyday it will get ( Read more... )

I really dont.Things have been so bad for so long.There is no where for us to go but up.Will things ever be the same? Everywhere I look,where I sleep,what I wear...everything,brings it back.I have to let it go,I know I do.My fear is that I will stop being hurt,and start to become bitter.Thats the way ppl in my life have made me.I dont let myself ( Read more... )

I think its always a really long spand of time in between journal entrys.I dunno why ( Read more... )

Torrid reverable Pink/Black skirt...sz 26

Measurments
50" waist
54" hips
16 1/2" length


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another b-day has past.this time was def much easier for me.jeff made it good for me,and i didnt miss mother too much.and for the first time...the kids membered my b-day and i didnt have to say anything.well the big ones anyway.i spent most of my day with them yesterday.that in its self was all i could ever want for my b-day.i just love to be able ( Read more... )