Scream my lungs out and try to get to you

[xgreatromancesx]

One thing I really hate is not having a grip on something. Like right now I feel like I can't control my life. And I'm just kinda here and there and going along with the flow of things. ...Somethings missing from my life. ...I hate emo so much now...but I'm fucking emo right now. One minute I want to cry, the next puke, then pull out my hair. I

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[imdeadto_you]

yeah i definitely know how that goes..

my ex said to me once:
why don't you smile anymore?

& it was just like i had nothing to smile about anymore;
because he was gone.

what is going on between you & brian, anyway??

[xgreatromancesx]

Brian and I are in two separate states now. He lives in Oklahoma I live here in Arkansas. We hardly ever talk these days. I try to talk to him on the internet and it's like he just doesn't even know who I am anymore. And I'm just really missing him. We're trying to move on from each other but it's like every time I'm alone he haunts my thoughs. He's coming down sometime soon and doesn't want to visit anyone...not even me. He just wants to get his drums visit his mom and dad and leave. I asked if I could visit him but he said no b/c of "all the memories coming back to him" and he's afraid of becoming the "old Brian" again. He told one of my friends that he never smiled while he was down here. He's always been such a fabricator. He smiled quite a bit actually. But alas, I'm falling for someone new these days. Sad truth though is I still can't get Brian out of my head.