Puzzling feelings and questions...

[xgrinnerx]

Before service... kinda of on the drive there, I kept running through my mind why i signed up to pioneer, why i wanted to do it, if the reason was for everyone else, for someone, for myself, and if I really knew what i had done and why. The whole time i couldn't actually answer myself why i signed up. The question still is in my head and i still

Comments

[dragon_foxx]

What exactly is pioneer?

[________reverie]

oh man, sounds like you're going through a hard time :[ you know you can always talk to me!! and there doesnt really have to be a reason.. you one day just felt it in your heart that you wanted to pioneer and so you did!! and thats a great reason! <333 feeeel bettteeer!!! <333

[randimus]

When I was first studying I swore up and down that they would never get me to knock on doors. I even felt that when asked or required to go in service would be the time i would end my study. Felt as aprhensive about talks. And they tell me I'm a good speaker. There are a lot of things we do in Jehovah's service that doesn't seem to fit us. Things just need time thats all. You made a good choice. And regardless of what you think your motives were, you did make a good effort to meet that decision's requirements. God won't forget that. Just remember to keep at things regardless of how badly you think you are at it or how unworthy you may think you feel.

[sstnoorwm]

just think of it this way... look at moses, he was TOTALLY not in his comfort zone when it came to bringing out Jehovah's message, but he did it because he had faith that Jehovah would help him. maybe u just need a spiritual boost...

[mareekoh]

Awww wittle eric! *HUGS*

You know, service is hard for LOTS of people, but the fact that you still do it, and you made the necessary adjustments to be able to pioneer really says alot about you. The truth and Jehovah's holy spirit enables ordinary people to do extraordinary things! Keep on doing what you're doing, I think you're doing a fantastic job.