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I almost ran over an angel
He had a nice big fat cigar
"In a sense" he said "You're alone here
So if you jump you best jump far"
i ♥ tori amos.
"Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap. He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened. I was so excited when I began realizing my existence. I was in a dark yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest day, I felt a special bonding between you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy. The same day the most horrible thing happened. A very mean moster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared. I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming. "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thouhgt I couldn't anymore. Then the moster started ripping my arm off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I realized I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you loved me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I has so many plans to make you happy. No I couldn't; all my dream were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you befor I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a hufe angel into a beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The angel took my to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion, I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is; I guess the name of the monster. I'm writing to say that I love you and tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will but couldn't; the moster was too powerful. It sucks my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kinda of pain I did. Please be careful.
Love,
Your Baby Girl"
He had a nice big fat cigar
"In a sense" he said "You're alone here
So if you jump you best jump far"
i ♥ tori amos.
"Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap. He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened. I was so excited when I began realizing my existence. I was in a dark yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest day, I felt a special bonding between you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy. The same day the most horrible thing happened. A very mean moster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared. I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming. "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thouhgt I couldn't anymore. Then the moster started ripping my arm off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I realized I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you loved me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I has so many plans to make you happy. No I couldn't; all my dream were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you befor I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a hufe angel into a beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The angel took my to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion, I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is; I guess the name of the monster. I'm writing to say that I love you and tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will but couldn't; the moster was too powerful. It sucks my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kinda of pain I did. Please be careful.
Love,
Your Baby Girl"