New Fic: 507 Gapfiller: Kaleidoscope

[xhaleslowly]

Wow. Talk about bittersweet. 507 was one of the strongest episodes of the season. But...

*sigh*

Well. I guess we knew it was coming :(

So... I have something a little different this week. Three POVs, all second person (thanks burnitbackwards for the encouragement!). And much love to ragingpixie for the read-through. *kisses*

No spoilers beyond 507.

Comments

[saydiesaidwhat]

Everyone on my Flist has been remarkably silent about 507. Maybe everybody is just in denial or shock

[xhaleslowly]

Yeah, people *have* been surprisingly quiet about the break up - but then I attribute that to so many people being spoiled!! lol! I think most of us knew what was coming :(

I really liked the episode too. The dialogue was fantastic, and I didn't feel like the break up was contrived or unrealistic. I believed it could happen this way.

I think your explanation that he's [Justin] putting on a brave face for everyone is probably true.

I hope so... he definitely did seem fairly shut down for a lot of it. But there were a few "cracks" that I picked up on, and just tried to build on those. I do think he felt like he needed to change *something* and he knew that Brian wasn't going to do it, and so he had to do what he did.

He knew Justin wasn't exactly happy, but refused to respond to it.

Oh yeah, totally. Brian just kept brushing it off. And the whole "You're making me fucking nervous" was the tell-tale sign that he knew deep inside that they couldn't go on like they were forever.

the fluctuating POVs were very powerfulThanks for

[xhaleslowly]

You make it hurt so good.

Thanks so much for this... I admit I kinda like writing the angst, and getting this feedback is awesome :)

[jealin98]

Oh sweetie, this is one for the ages as they say. Absolutely incredible. I found myself with tears running down my face and didn't even realize they were there until the words started blurring. The way you captured these feeling of all three of them was unbelievable. It was truly a kaleidoscope, and such a painfully beautiful one.

The drawer sentence...OMG, how much that brought to life the fact that yes it was "just" a drawer.

Justin wanting to say "I love you" one last time...Well, that I think took me over the edge.

And the sad truth of it is... no matter what you do, or what you say... you find yourself loving him as much as you ever did before.

Yes that is a sad truth that Justin has to face...and Brian too for that matter even though he hasn't ever said the words, the feelings were and are there so strongly..but his pride, or fear, or whatever you want to call it is a little bit stronger.

BEAUTIFUL one Ethan...Just beautiful.

[xhaleslowly]

Thank you so much for this... this ep was so hard and so painful and all I wanted to do was try and explain *why* this could be happening, why Brian was letting everything fall apart around him. And why everything *was* falling apart. I really needed to bring all three of them into it to show the complete picture, I think.

And thank you for pulling out those parts that you liked the best... I just felt like Justin had to let go *because* he loves Brian so much. If they'd kept on going the way they were, it was only going to end anyway - and worse, end badly.

They still love each other - that's never going to change :)

Thanks again for this :X

[ley_rae]

Please add me to the list of crying people.

I really, really loved this. I loved the changing POV. I expected to be crying and feeling all achy at the Brian and Justin parts, but somehow it was the Mikey perspective that really got me. (I can't believe I just typed that sentence.) It just felt really perfect and true to me. Michael has been there since the beginning, and has an ability to see things a little more clearly (maybe not in the beginning so much with the unrequited Brian-love, but now, at least)... I've really loved how he's been the cheerleader for this relationship this season, and you nailed it so perfectly.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing. I'm loving these gapfillers, they've been delightful.

[xhaleslowly]

Thanks so much for this feedback - especially about the changing POV and the "Mikey perspective". I wasn't sure if it would work, but I really wanted to try and see things from an outsiders point-of-view. You're right - Michael has been there since the beginning and even though I think his view has often been clouded (see early S3), I think that he's come to truly accept Justin for who he is and the role he plays in Brian's life. It was interesting to try and see things as he might've.

And thank you for letting me know you're enjoying the gapfillers this season - that's so awesome to hear :)

喜欢喜欢BRIAN！！！

[ley_rae]

I am very very like Brian&Jusitin.
Sorry my english is not good.
I am chinese.

[ginaharold]

I was originally glad Justin left Brian. I didn't hurt or anything. Brian's just been an ass IMHO. But by the 3rd time I watched 507, I was hurting. I realized that I still wnat them together, I just want Brian to treat my Justin better. But this, this made me cry my little eyes out & truly feel everyone's pain. OMG, I hurt now.

Beautiful & perfect.

[xhaleslowly]

While I'm a true believer in the Brian/Justin relationship (oh really? you may ask sarcastically! lol!) I can see why you might be glad initially that Justin left Brian. Of course I want them together, but I also think that a wake up call might be necessary at this point for Brian. And that's what Justin's given him. I do think it was better that he left when he did - when there was still something to salvage - rather than leave after they've both come to resent each other. And that could've happened, based on the increasing frustration and "snarkiness" that Cowlip had been showing us.

I do wish this didn't have to happen, but maybe they'll end up stronger for it in the end :)

Thank you so much for the feedback and comments - so appreciated!

[ginaharold]

Thank you for your stories! They deffinitely help make the show much better than it has been lately.