New Fic: Flashback (B/J, R)

[xhaleslowly]

Well, here we are again :) This one's a little different - it's got a mix of POVs and tenses and this episode and past episodes and it's kind of an experiment, but I hope you all enjoy it.

Huge hugs to ragingpixie for the read-through and hand-holding ;)

Comments

[luceononuro]

Long exhale.....oh.....squeezed heart.....I just feel so sad

[xhaleslowly]

Ohhh, yeah I know :( That last episode... it was hard to find anything good in it (though seriously, I loved Justin's little smile after Brian told him he should be proud!!) :) Gotta take what we can get in these last few episodes!! lol!

Thanks so much for the comment!

[moose74]

Love it. ♥

Especially the Deb/Brian stuff. That scene was amazing and you extrapolated on it so well.

Do you ever tire of hearing how much we love you? :) Great job as always!

[xhaleslowly]

Thanks so much Moosie!! I'm glad you liked the Brian/Deb stuff. I've never really written about them before, and I loved how they brought that aspect back into this last episode. Brian standing at the door, saying, "I don't want it"... he just sounded like a kid, and somehow I saw he and Deb's relationship always being around that level. She's always looking out for him in one way or another - and maybe even more so than Michael, because Brian needs her in such different ways. She's like mother and father figure for Brian.

Do you ever tire of hearing how much we love you?

Oh God, never!! lol! I love love love the feedback... hearing from you guys and getting the support is so freakin' amazing. It's why I write these little fics :)

Thank you :X :X :X

[blacksatinrose]

You just broke my heart in a million beautiful ways.

[xhaleslowly]

This ep was a tough one for sure... Brian and Justin so far apart, Brian in such pain at losing everything. God. :( I'm getting tired of writing these angsty fics!! lol! I'm ready for some fun stuff now ;)

Thanks so much for the comment!

[sandstorm63]

Dear God Ethan. If I could only express what I'm feeling. Deb and Brian. I always loved those 2. Your flashbacks were perfect, if I close my eyes, I can see those memories clearly. There is no doubt in my mind, you should have written the entire 5 seasons of QAF. ♥

[xhaleslowly]

Andrea, you always know the perfect things to say. Thank you so much for this... I'd never written Deb and Brian before and always had wanted to... I wanted to explore that relationship a little further and I felt like this ep gave me a chance to do that. I loved the continuity this episode had with 311, it was so great. That moment, tied in with the art show, gave me the idea to try this experiment with the flashbacks :) Plus it gave me a chance to write about Brian and Justin together, even though they were very much *not* together in this episode!

I'm so glad this fic worked for you... thank you so much for all this, Andz :X

[tawny_7]

I liked the way you wrote this with the flashbacks and different point of views. I must admit the flashforward is truly heartbreaking, and my tears started falling quicker as I read it. That is not how I want Brian to end up, but I guess we'll have to wait a few more weeks to see what Cowlip have in store for us...
As always, thank you for your gap fillers! I love reading your stuff because you get inside the characters' minds. Too bad you didn't help write season 5...

[xhaleslowly]

Thanks so much for letting me know you liked my "experiment"! Though I'm sorry the flashforward made you cry :( I just wanted a moment of revelation for Brian. He seems like he's on a precipice right now, ready to fall one way or the other. He's just going nowhere almost, standing still. It's frustrating to watch because you know he can't stand still forever. And the fact that he showed up at Justin's art show says everything :) Just like it did the first time!! lol!!

Thanks again for this fantastic feedback - much appreciated!!

[tawny_7]

Don't worry about making me cry, just about everything you write brings out emotions in me. I mean it as a compliment to your writing because you touch not only me, but it seems everyone who reads your stuff.
The flashforward is very insightful, Brian is standing still, like he's trying to decide what to do, and if he doesn't do something soon he may end up the way the flashforward ends...alone.
I like your gapfillers just as much as the actual shows. They give us what the writers don't. I'm really looking forward to your 510 gapfiller!

[xhaleslowly]

I mean it as a compliment to your writing

Thank you for that... I do take it as a compliment. To hear that my words can invoke emotion like that in people just amazes me :)