New Fic: Flashback (B/J, R)

[xhaleslowly]

Well, here we are again :) This one's a little different - it's got a mix of POVs and tenses and this episode and past episodes and it's kind of an experiment, but I hope you all enjoy it.

Huge hugs to ragingpixie for the read-through and hand-holding ;)

Comments

[_alicesprings]

if i wasn't sitting here literally crying tears all over the keyboard, i'd give you better feedback. that was just so beautiful, well done, although a little too real, i'm feeling very raw right now.

[xhaleslowly]

Aw man, yeah :( This ep was just... hard. The distance between Brian and Justin was frustrating and Brian's pain was just so evident. It was hard to find something to write for this ep, and I wanted to write some happy stuff, so I went back to the past episodes to see how things were. And then tried bring Brian back to the present - and his possible future - as a warning of how things could be if he doesn't start to listen to his heart.

Thank you so much for the comments :)

PS - Your icon is very cool, btw!!

[_alicesprings]

Thanks for the thoughts. I'm still semi-depressed about the ending (513) so that's why this hit me so hard. Eagerly awaiting the next gapfiller!

[bjshipper]

I don't think I've ever commented in your journal before but yours was one of the first QAF fanfic sites that I ever came across and I've loved everything you've ever written. This story was no exception. It honestly hurts my heart a little to read it because it feels so incredibly real. I think this story affected me more than the episode itself did because here I actually felt like I was inside Brian's heart- feeling what he was feeling and it was so powerful. I'm gushing like a teeny-bopper at a Backstreet Boys concert or something but I just can't help it. You're so talented. Thank you so much for posting this and all of the other stories you've written. They are all amazing.

[xhaleslowly]

Thank you *so much* for this :) Seriously... wow. I love your comments about the story "feeling real"... I wanted to get inside Brian's head for this, wanted to try and understand where he's coming from and fully embrace the pain he must be feeling at losing everything. I think he knows he's self-destructive, but he just can't stop himself. There were so many honest moments for Brian in this ep - the look on his face when he told Deb that Michael won't talk to him, his telling Justin that he should be proud, his comment to Ted at the end about being a friend. He was starting to crack a little, and I wanted to go back and see the things that might've lead him to this place. The moments in his life that might be flashing back through his head as he stands on this ledge now

[teary_eyed2]

Could you be any more perfect? Write this piece more perfectly? Me thinks not. My achy breaky ♥.

[xhaleslowly]

Thanks so much for this teary... it's so great to get :) Hopefully I'll get a chance to put your heart back together soon ;)

[daninagido]

kghji8tgvf wah. love. :X:X

[xhaleslowly]

Thank so much :X

[xhaleslowly]

*ahem*

I mean, thanks so much!! lol!!!!

[thumpathumpa]

I have no words. Again, you do an excellent job of conveying what's in these characters heads. Please keep allowing us to share in your talent.

Thumpa

[xhaleslowly]

Thank you so much, Thumpa!! I'm so glad you've been enjoying the fics this year. I sure hope to keep going till the end of the season :)