Comments | xhaleslowly: New Fic: Starting Over (B/J, NC-17)

xhaleslowly

New Fic: Starting Over (B/J, NC-17)

Aug 10, 2005 18:20

Couldn't let another Wednesday slip by with no fic :) So... here it is. The last one. I cheated a little because this one covers 512 and 513 and as a result it's a little long :| But I hope you guys enjoy it. I felt like I had so much I wanted to say after that finale, and I think I got most of it into this fic, and I know there's more, but I had ( Read more... )

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ashleykinney August 11 2005, 02:09:53 UTC

oh my god, ethan. oh. god. i cant even say words to you...perfect.

xhaleslowly August 11 2005, 05:01:15 UTC

Aw sweetie... thanks so much for this :)

_mixed_media_ August 11 2005, 02:11:41 UTC

I love all your fic to death, but this is one of my favorite things you've ever written. Made me cry, but I'm glad. This was the perfect gapfiller.

xhaleslowly August 11 2005, 05:05:40 UTC

This is the best thing to hear, thank you :) I frankly was *very* nervous about this one - but getting this kind of feedback makes me feel a lot better about it. I'm so glad you liked it so much :)

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xhaleslowly August 11 2005, 05:17:46 UTC

Awwww... BIBW-y. I hope I don't have to tell you how very much your feedback means to me :X And I love everything you said about this fic, all the things you got from it... I was pretty nervous about this one because it felt so personal when I was writing it. It's all the things I felt about the finale, all the things I wanted to see or imagine will happen in the future. I just didn't know if it would speak to anyone else, you know?

So thank you so much for this, darlin' and much love to you :X

damietta August 11 2005, 02:22:45 UTC

"You'd wanted to go all along, but didn't - couldn't - go without his asking. Didn't want to follow him, didn't want him to feel like you didn't believe that he could do it on his own. Didn't want him to feel like you were watching over him, protecting him, looking after him."

You know, I never thought of that. That Brian would wait for Justin to ask. That makes such perfect sense! I'm so very glad you had Justin ask.

I think this is your masterpiece. You've written some beautiful gapfillers, but this one is at the top.

And, I LOVED that Justin took Brian's ring and Brian put on Justin's. Did you notice that Brian actually put on Justin's ring in the episode (where he's practicing with Gus to hand the minister the rings?)

Thank you! (And, please keep writing.)

xhaleslowly August 12 2005, 04:50:53 UTC

I'm so very glad you had Justin ask.

I had two ways this was playing out in my head and I'm glad you liked the way I decided to go with it. It really irked me that they didn't give a legitmate reason *why* Brian wouldn't go with Justin to NY. He'd been talking about it since S1. He had no real reason to stay in the Pitts. I just didn't get it. So I really wanted to make sure that in this fic I *gave* him a reason! lol!

And oh yeah, and I totally noticed Brian putting Justin's ring on, but ironically, not until after I'd written that part of the fic! But when I saw that, it just confirmed for me that maybe, just maybe, that was something that could've happened :)

Thanks so much for this, it's so appreciated!

msjudi August 11 2005, 02:22:46 UTC

Now you know your life starts itself over and over again, a million times a day.

Oh, God, I really needed this, Ethan. I've been going through the days painting and laughing with my kiddo and fucking my poor husband nearly raw and pretending that I don't miss a silly TV show that ended badly and oh my god, I needed this fic. I don't care how many re-writes I've done myself, for the end of the show, or how many more I might do, this story is the pinnacle of the Brian/Justin saga.

Fuck, thank you, Ethan. Really. This is the second time you've made me bawl with your stories. I respect the hell out of you.

xhaleslowly August 12 2005, 04:57:52 UTC

Aw Judi...

Thank you for this. I know what you mean about the end of the show... it's been stirring around in my head, leaving me feeling so unsatisfied, so discontented with how they decided to have it all play out. I didn't *hate* it, I just think they could've done more. Better, I guess.

And so I wrote this fic, which ended up being so personal about the way *I* feel about how things should've happened, and I honestly didn't know if anyone would see it like I did - if this would speak to anyone else other than me.

So to get this feedback is so amazing, and so appreciated, and as always, I thank you so much for it :X