Title: Forever and For Always
Pairing: Yoosu
Length: one shot (1346 words)
Author: xheartmindsoul
Rating: G
Genre: fluff
Summary: Just another fluffy Yoosu Christmas one shot.
Forever and For Always
Junsu wakes up one morning to see the world covered in snow. His mind immediately jumps to snowball fights, making snow angels and catching snowflakes on his tongue, but once he thinks about how Yoochun catches a cold and falls sick easily he realizes he doesn’t like winter as much as he thought.
Yoochun likes the snow. He loves the chill and the freezing cold because it gives him yet another excuse to snuggle with Junsu and hold him close. He slips an arm around the younger man’s waist and the other doesn’t object. He feels warmth and happiness spreading through him, as he takes in the other’s sweet scent and the fruity smell of his shampoo.
Junsu loves the festive season because of presents and glittering lights and gingerbread mans. He loves teaming up with Yoochun making cookies, candy and all sorts of sweets, and then getting scolded moments later for wrecking Jaejoong hyung’s beloved kitchen, in which the both of them would point at each other and exclaim in unison “he did it!”
Yoochun loves Christmas because even though they’re working most of the time they still have each other. Christmas is a time for family, they say. He looks at the people around him and smiles. The staff working on set, manager Hyung, and his beloved members - they’re his family now, especially Junsu. His baby Junsu.
Junsu is tired but he doesn’t complain. It’s Christmas Eve but they’re not spared from work. When Yoochun turns around to give him that irresistible smile he can’t help but smile back, and suddenly he knows what he wants most this Christmas. He knows he’s hoping for the impossible, that no matter what they were never meant to be, so he just smiles and laughs it all away because that’s what Xiah Junsu does best.
Yoochun’s one to wear his heart on his sleeve. Even so he tries his best to hide his feelings but recently he’s been finding it hard to, especially when Junsu looks at him with those warm brown eyes and that adorable smile that never fails to make his heart flutter. So he looks and he stares and he laughs along, hoping that someday that one person will notice him too.
Junsu chirps, “Two boys and a girl!” without giving the question much thought when the interviewer asks him how many children he would like to have. A second later he realises he should’ve said something more amusing like twenty girls and thirty boys, but Yunho’s already doing that, earning himself playful slaps on the back by the others.
Yoochun tries not to show it, but his heart is breaking into a million tiny pieces, because he knows he can never give Junsu the family that he wants. Does Junsu dream of having children of his own? The singer has never mentioned anything about it before. Yoochun’s heart sinks. Of course he does.
Junsu feels his heart bleed crimson when Yoochun tells the interviewer with a smile that he doesn’t want to get married. “What about me?” he wants to ask, but instead he chuckles and says playfully, “No girl would want him anyway.”
Yoochun hesitates at first, but answers honestly, because if he doesn’t get to marry the person he truly loves he doesn’t want to get married at all, even if it means living in loneliness and misery for the rest of his life.
Junsu knows about all the girlfriends Yoochun’s ever had. “She’s really pretty! Does she have a sister?” he asks, grinning. Inside he’s dying, slowly and little by little, but he jokes about it and laughs it away, because that’s the only thing he can do. As long as Yoochun is happy, he tells himself.
Yoochun’s aware that they call him the group’s playboy, but what they don’t know is that there has only been one person in his heart and he’s just trying to make that someone notice him. “She’s bright like the sun. That’s why I love her,” he says, showing Changmin a picture of a pretty girl in his cell phone, all the while never taking his eyes off that one boy who lights up his world. And Changmin wonders if he’s really talking about the girl in the cell phone or the boy singing noisily in the kitchen.
Junsu doesn’t like it when Yoochun goes out drinking. “It’s bad for health, Chunnie-ah,” he scolds. He just doesn’t like to admit that he feels alone, left out and hurt that Yoochun’s having fun without him. He had wished to spend Christmas Eve with Yoochun, counting down the seconds to Christmas like they do each year.
Yoochun likes to drink his worries away, sip after sip, glass after glass. Junsu drives him crazy he’s getting frustrated, so he rants and rants to his buddies about how much it hurts to be in love. The crowd ignores him as they party away, without a single worry in the world.
Junsu stares at the mistletoe hanging above him in the living room (courtesy of Jaejoong) and all he thinks of is Yoochun. He’s angry at Yoochun for coming home drunk last night. He doesn’t know why but he’s just so angry, so tired, so scared and so confused. He wants to tell Yoochun how he feels but he just can’t seem to do it. He knows he’s a coward, but he doesn’t want to lose his best friend.
Yoochun’s suffering from a killer hang-over, but when he sees his love standing under the mistletoe, looking so deep in thought and ever so cute, his head stops hurting and all he wants to do is press his lips against the younger man’s. And that’s exactly what he does. All of a sudden he’s not scared and not confused, because he knows that his love is true and he wants Junsu to know it too.
Junsu is happy and he’s smiling so wide he makes them all smile too. Jaejoong is fixing the turkey for dinner and Yunho is hovering behind, helping him while Changmin is busy killing aliens on his Xbox. Junsu pulls Yoochun closer and says, “You’re the best Christmas present ever!”
Yoochun feels complete at last, staring at his little family. He laughs out loud when he hears Junsu’s declaration, and nuzzles his face against Junsu’s neck affectionately. “So are you,” he mutters. He plants a sweet kiss on Junsu’s lips and although he’s said it many times since their first kiss underneath the mistletoe, he says it again, with sincerity and all his love. “I love you, Su.”
Junsu knows Yoochun will always be there with him no matter what, even if the sky falls down and the earth stops turning.
Yoochun knows Junsu will hold his hand and walk with him to the end of the world, until the end of time.
Junsu wonders if this is the magic of Christmas, because he loves Yoochun so much he can’t believe his Chunnie feels the same way too. He knows his love for Yoochun will never change.
Yoochun knows it too, because he leans in and whispers the words that make Junsu blush bright red like the ornaments hanging on the tree.
“Me too, Su, forever and for always. Happy Christmas.”