Death:

Lately I have lost so much respect for human life. I always used to feel so empathetic towards those who had unfortunatley lost their lives.  Human existence has completely lost its impotance in my eyes.  I am not exactly sure why, but there are people with whom I converse with regularly who could die, and I may not feel saddened by it.  ( Read more... )

ugh..well i had a GREAT night last night. no not really ( Read more... )

If i had blades on my fingertips i would be pretty good at shaving.

I want the band im in to get better. I want to be less confused about everything. I want to skateboard more. I want to talk to someone. I want to be entertained more easily. I want this feeling in my stomache to go away. I want to be happy. I want someone to call me just to talk. I want to fall asleep easier at night. I want to get money without ( Read more... )

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT

I need something that is indescribable
Something that no one else can have.

well... a lot of shit has changed dramatically since i came home from alaska...its good and strange right now...im looking kind of for anyone who wants to start a band..i just want a band that practices like 3 times a week for 2 or 3 hours a day...practice at my house is not a big deal. i just really need something. i really want to either just ( Read more... )

its my last day on the ship..i will be home tommorow at around 7 i think..whatever..i feel really depressed lately..hmmmmi dont know what im going to do when i get home first. I dont know who i want to see first. I guess i will figure it out. hopefully someone calls me. I hate this trip and i hate that i have missed out on 2 weeks of being with my ( Read more... )

ugh why am i so pissed off right now?

Probably because i hate a LOT of people right now. and there are a lot of people who if i never talked to again i would not care at all.

People who call me drunk and say STUPID SHIT!
if you killed yourself i probably would not care at all.

Parties are fucking stupid
"GET WASTED!!! WOOOOH!!"

i dont know why i ( Read more... )

I finally did it

I became LUCID in a dream last night. and unfortunatley is was a terrifying dream. but i got out of it. and realized while i was in it, that i was dreaming.

DREAM:
i am walking into a building that is made of stone, (no doors and no windows)  I am following deanna into the building. Inside is a viewing for the bodies of dead ( Read more... )