i had dinner with long lost emily canty tonight, it was really fun.
we caught up on some things, and ate wrapsody.

::sigh:: where did all the good times go?
where did all my friends go?
my best friend is my boyfriend,
my other best friend is my boss, and she is married, and lives an hour away.
wtf am i doing with my life?

im really tired tho, so i will ( Read more... )

marisa texted me. her grandpa is dying. like not that long left, prob more than a week. but who knows ( Read more... )

so its basically my family against me.i was talking to garrett online. and he was quite blunt.

Youngblood1991 (9:12:30 PM): stephy your also more emotional than i am

Youngblood1991 (9:13:22 PM): its who you are
mizzKINKYnizz (9:13:25 PM): meh
Youngblood1991 (9:13:27 PM): paranoid mofo

Youngblood1991 (9:14:16 PM): i didnt say you were delusional

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i had a dream last night, but i didnt realize it was a dream until i woke up this morning ( Read more... )

so this vacation at home was good for all the family shit. but as far as the friedns, it sucked.
i was depressed and i did not want to move off the couch, i was more than OK with spending the vacation on the couch, watching whatever was on tv, and making up excuses to people as to why i couldnt go out.... i hated it. but i couldnt help it.. but i ( Read more... )

oh man, is it over yet? final tomorrow, prob canceled... no postponed cause my teacher would NEVER cancel a final ( Read more... )

SO ALONE ( Read more... )

You want to know what the scariest thing about life is? Its not worrying about your future, or what your going to be when you grow up. Not if your going to get a job or anything like that. the most fucked up thing about life is relationships. You let somebody get so close to you. You let them know everything about you. They know all of your ( Read more... )

right now i am watching tv sitting next to the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me,
his name is dustin, and i am completely in love with him.
we've only been together for 2 months, but i feel like we've known eachother for years.
he makes me so happy,
he treats me like a princess
and for him, i am SO fucking greatful

more later <33

remind me, regardless of how happy i am at the time, to not stop taking my medicine.

depression sneaks up out of nowhere.

fucking stupid.