it may always seem that i have a lot of friends but to tell the truth i have never ever felt accepted or really 'one of them.' i have many groups of people i would call my good friends but i'm never part of the group. i can never tell if it is just me or if it is just chance. it bothers me immensely that i never had a constant group of friends that i could keep for years and years
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pretty damn obvious but i don't care.
anonymous
August 2 2006, 17:54:30 UTC
i was seeing this boy for years. litterally years. he blames me for giving up. i couldn't hurt like that anymore because he didn't give a shit until it was too late. at first he admited that he didn't do enough. now he tells all his friends that i just stopped caring and it is all my fault. at first i was extrememly hurt by all of this. but now i just don't care. the friends who heard his rumors and talked to me about it said that they knew it wasn't the truth. so i was satisfied. when he broke of contact with me i was so hurt. but now i feel relieved because he is so childish. i don't have to be the 'adult.' i can be myself and not worry about him. i do miss him, but i miss the 'him' from when we were in high school. i had to go. and i am so thankful i did because it was just time. it's rather awkward when people ask about him. i know i'll have to do it for years just because we were 'the couple' in high school. we were going to get married. everyone pretty much expected it. i did too. but i'm not disappointed
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